Good evening all, I’ve not been online much recently..
I hope everyone is as well as they can be.
I got my date through for my CT Scan on my Kidney. Up until now I’ve been feeling really good, BCG treatment all went well, (for the Bladder)
But as soon as I got my date it seems that I’ve been knocked back down to earth. Yesterday I was very flat, had to take today off work.
the what ifs are bad at the moment…been thinking what if they have missed it and it’s spread to somewhere else….
from March when I got diagnosed to the day I finished the BCG treatment I had a determined mind set..now I have finished the BCG and started to relax a bit my mind is starting to go into overdrive….
tomorrow will be a better day…I hope…
love to all
Nigel xx
hey friend there are no apologies needed for being frightened and anxious. we have all been there and understand. everyone i am sure does overthinking, i know i certainly do, it usually happens when faced with scans or tests. the rest of the time i get on with life and i am sure you do the same. give yourself a hug Nigel, its not easy . stay in touch friend
Much love Angela x
Hi Nigel,
It is so easy to let all the negative thoughts invade. I was so anxious last week before my GA Cystoscopy. My lovely Hubby kept asking if I was OK because I was very quiet and internalising all my anxiety. I have now been intouch with Macmillan to access some counselling. I'm hoping that this will help to streamline my thought processes.
Glad to hear you are feeling better now.
Love Ade xx
Thank you Ade, had a good nights sleep… feel much better now…
of course you’re all right…the minute I got appointment dates the what’s ifs hit me…
back to being positive
Nigel x
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