Little wobble today…but ok now

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Evening all, 

Had a case of the “what ifs” today. As I’ve been getting closer to finishing the BCG, I keep on thinking what if it hasn’t worked. Looking too far ahead, I suppose that’s my mind playing tricks on me.. 

love to all 

Nigel

  • Your going to have Days like this Nigel and there is nothing wrong with that at all we all have them when you have Days like this use it as a tap on the shoulder and think to yourself yea I’m still aware of the situation and it’s keeping your mind focused on the task in hand and once you’ve finished the BCG bit of rest time recharge the batteries all the best pal 

    Ste 

  • Cheers Ste, im learning how to try and deal with these days… 

    Tomorrow is another day.

    hope your well

    Nigel

  • I’m not bad pal first surveillance check up on the horizon now so the that’s gradually making its way into the front of the mind everything still as it was after last TURBT so see how that goes Thumbsup

    Ste 

  • I think this as well what happens after the 27 Bcg, s will it return and then there are no options, I think it's normal to worry about the future isn't it. 

  • Good luck with the check up Ste, 

    Nigel 

  • HI Bumblebee, yeah unfortunately I think that’s the natural way of thinking…I’m sure it will all go to plan..

    hows you? 

    Nigel

  • Hi Nigel, i think a bad case of the ‘what ifs ‘ now and again are to be expected tbh. I think it would be a bit strange if no one ever had them. The trick is not letting them overwhelm us. I just had a 5 minute what if just now and decided to think about other stuff . ( chuckling because i thought of a monty python sketch about a 5 minute argument ) .  How are you today ?

    Much love Angela x

  •    Try not to get ahead of yourself my good man. One step at a time. Worrying will not change the science of your case in any way. I am sure you are in good hand with your treatment team. All the best, Leo

  • Thank you Angela and Leo, I’m fine now, funny that’s what I was thinking Leo, ( I can’t do anything about it) 

    love to all 

    Nigel

  • Hi  

    I really hope you don’t mind me coming onto your thread here?  You talk about the “what ifs”. They are little words but big in meaning for us, often negative. 

    I’ve had years to consider the what ifs, at various times since my original diagnosis as different challenges occurred. My view, from my experience, is to try to shift the possible negativity of those words and frame it more positively.

    What if it works? What if this goes well? What if I will be fine? Seems simple, and I know it’s not, but I’ve had more than one doctor tell me during the last 6 years of dealing with cancer and the aftermath that attitude affects patients in treatment and recovery. I chose to hold onto that thought, and they thought that my positivity was a real bonus in the really tough times-there have been many! 

    One day at a time, no point in getting ahead of yourself, and focus on the now. I really wish you well with everything.

    Sarah xx


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