I’ve just had a TURBT last week and I’m waiting for the biopsies. I have been feeling very depressed and low. This time last year I was working and full of life and now I’m on disability and in pain every day. I’m getting to the point where I don’t think I can go on living like this. I’m crying every day and it just feels like I’m being punished for something. I need some encouraging words from someone somewhere as I’m at the lowest point of my life.
Hi deans24
Sorry to hear that you're going through a difficult time. I assume the pain and being on disability it's not related to the bladder cancer, not that it makes any difference really.
Getting a cancer diagnosis knocks your mental health for sure, I can only imagine when you're suffering already.
I've suffered from depression for 12 odd year's now, since having a breakdown due to stress and long before my diagnosis. I know how low it can make you feel, and was in a very dark place myself for a while.
I know this is hard to believe right now, but things will get better. Take each day at a time.
Going back to cancer, I found getting my treatment plan in place helped me alot.
What also helped me was this forum, so please ask any questions you have, I'm the first to admit I'm not the most experienced when it comes to terminology etc, but I'm 18 months in my journey and I'm Cancer free (touch wood) since my TURBTs.
I really hope you feel yourself again soon, but remember it's okay to not be okay and reach out for help if you need it. I've had many therapy sessions and these helped for sure.
Take care.
Trevor
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