Got my ct scan on Friday first one since my treatment finnished in December feeling a bit apprehensive love to all Phil x
PMA positive mental attitude. I want to hear you say it out loud 3 times 
They all say half the battle is having a positive attitude to things apparently hard when your a glass is half empty person like me mind
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Much love and hope to everyone past future and present.
I also hate autocorrect and hope people can make sense out of my posts when it changes half the words I type.
Always a bit of a fingers crossed moment. I have them annually now for my first kidney cancer. Also 3 monthly cystoscopies for my bladder cancer too and each time I feel the same. But dwelling on it doesn't help so find any way you can to put it firmly aside in your brain until the day (or the day before at earliest!) Easier said than done but worth the effort. I try to see friends and distract myself from myself as much as I can.! Very best of luck. X
I still get anxious and try to work out if the staff doing the scan are looking at me in a particular way!! Pointless I know but someone needs to tell my anxiety to stop it! I actually didn’t get the results put up on my chart and the consultant only mentioned it in passing!!
sending you good thoughts and calm xx
Fingers crossed for you Phil, the anxiety before results is a tough one, the what ifs try crowding your thoughts and keeping us awake at night. I often practice mindfulness at these times to stop the anxiety running away with me. I have found it very useful for keeping my thoughts in the here and now , and not trying to predict the future I know nothing about. Take care Phil and keep us posted. I will be thinking of you on Friday x
Much love Angela x
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