Keeping being upbeat

Hello Hou, hope you are feeling in better spirits this morning. You have my full sympathy, I know just how you feel. I've just completed the full 27 BCG doses which stretched over 4 years, and a long drawn-out demoralising process it is. Sometimes I felt embarrassed having yet again to drop out of social events or miss my pilates classes because of the treatment, I felt like I was making a fuss but it was definitely the right thing for me. I found it best to stay home on my own close to the loo over the three weeks of the doses, rest up and not  deal with any additional challenges when I felt below parr. Because I live alone I was able to flop around, watch box sets and eat readimeals during the treatments. I think people quite understandably tend to forget the seriousness of what's happening for you when it drags on for so long, and they don't get that the side effects are unpredictable. For example Dose 25 no reaction at all, Doses 26 and 27 both whacked me out. Then there are the 3 monthly screenings which are of course stressful however brave we try to be. One all clear cystoscopy and people can think it's all over. If only! Cancer is a lonely journey but we are all here support. We do understand. Sending love H x

Thank you for your encouraging words x great to hear that you have finished your treatments you have done well to have persevered with it all as I've been reading that so many don't... as you say the cystoscopys and treatment can cause so much anxiety..I am at the start of a long journey .. I am trying my best not to be down .. maybe I am being hyperactive but I just don't want everyone thinking I  am a miserable so and so ... I always stay at home on treatment day but usually I'm ok the next day but as the treatment goes on I am guessing things will get harder .. last night I just felt that no one understands how I feel and even though it wasn't a big deal I just needed to share my feelings with others who are going through this too xx thanks again love Tina xx

Thank you  I'll  be in touch tomorrow after my treatment as I will be staying in for obvious reasons take care hope all good with you x

What a glorious rose! And it's variety "Peace" too if I'm not much mistaken. Can almost smell it looking at your lovely photo, thanks, 

Denby

It’s one that was rescued from the undergrowth, it is rather nice and I think you’re correct in calling it “Peace”.

I wonder if you can identify this one for me ?

My dad had one that was 'orange sensation' but I never knew many and only up to leaving home in 1976! Having just googled that it does not look lie your stunning hybrid tea one here. So can't help I'm afraid. Jolly cheerful bloom anyway.

Denby