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Sound's to me that you're doing really well on the road to stopping.

2 cigarettes from 20 a day is amazing going. I stopped a long time ago 30+ year's, wasn't a heavy smoker and remember finding it hard.

Don't beat yourself up, but wishing you all the best on quitting.

I like a beer, and I don't feel an ounce of guilt lol.

Trevor 

I hear you Kenzie. I blame myself badly because I smoked. I remember my lovely GP saying he didn’t think I had bladder cancer and then casually saying do you smoke?  I had to say yes. Since I was 12 apart from a few years. That moment burned in my mind. I have stopped. I still think about it but you can stop too. Someone said to me stop buying them. And if you buy them don’t put them in your mouth. 
I honestly thought I could not stop and to be honest I didn’t want to stop! And yes other food treats have helped. I wish you well. One thing I’d say is I love not feeling guilty that I smoke! Lots of love x

Thank-you ‘Non judgemental’ BFG. Also JoyceF who I will also thank.

Thank-you “Non judgemental” JoyceF. 

Please don't blame yourself. Most of us here smoked so you aren't alone.

I stopped after my mother died of bladder cancer, though waited 6 months before I tossed my last pack and lighter into the dustbin in 1975 - I thought I needed them to get through my university finals, though I halved my intake from 20 to 10. I started at 17 so smoked 5 years. That was in 1975 and I only passively smoked after that.

Mum smoked from 17 to 63 and  stopped in the hospital on diagnosis. When we asked her why, she said she no longer fancied it once she knew it was killing her. Until then she used to say it was her only pleasure. She died a few days, after that, having ignored her symptoms until I took her to the GP.

I agree that nicotine gum and vapes etc don't always help. I used chocolate I think though for years I gave that up too - it's an addiction as well. 

So maybe you could try what I ďid? And throw everything away. If you want something to do with your hands, some people crochet or knit,  others paint or draw, some go for walks or join an exercise class to get fit. I recommend Pilates because it teaches one how to breath more  deeply and effectively. 

And slowly but surely you have a new habit to replace tobacco and probably a new way to spend the money that used to be wasted on smoking. I hope so anyway.

All the best,

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