Hi my sister recently moved to a hospice where she will spend her last days / weeks. She had a prognosis 8 weeks ago that was completely not expected. She has stage 4 binary duct cancer, a very aggressive form that has spread to her gallbladder, liver and bowel.
In August we were totally unaware this awful cancer was growing inside her living life as normal. She was aware she had a large gallstone and had been put on a waiting list to have her gallbladder removed then September symptoms of her gallstone came back leading to an emergency ambulance call and hospital admission. After an MRI scan we were told the awful prognosis. This was just 8 weeks ago!
I have been by my sister's side throughout all this because I knew how frightened she was. I moved into the hospital and now have moved into the hospice with her. I can't let her go through this feeling scared but it's just so awful to see her deteriorating Infront of me.
I just can't process that she was so full of life just 8 weeks ago and now she is half the person she was with only days left to live. I have so many emotions running through and a panic that one day I won't see her beautiful face looking back at me. To say I'm heartbroken is an understatement. Her husband is unable to accept this is happening and is struggling so I am trying to hold everything together so that my sister does not worry but I know deep down she is worrying about me.
All I can do is reassure her everything will be okay and the family will continue to support eachother but it's so hard as I know it will never be the same without her. She is one amazing, beautiful, caring woman who I call my big sister and my best friend and I'm so scared. I'm sitting next to her talking about our childhood and things that will keep her mind away from the fact she is dying but the ache I feel inside is unbearable. I just feel so sad but trying to make the most of each day / night we can spend together xxx
