Hi all,
I'm caring for my mum who has a large tumour in her liver, we've been told it started in the bile duct. At her last scan before chemo started it was 17. 5cmx8cm. She has her last "big/long treatment of chemo & immunotherapy tmoro then a scan on 22nd Sept. She has type 2 diabetes,& it has been a struggle for her. She has had a blood transfusion, then a week later a magnesium infusion, I fear which was depleted after all the meds they've given her for fluid retention. I live just 20 doors away from her,so within 2mins I'm at hers.I visit 2 to 3 times a day, & take meals which I've cooked for her. She is very weak & shaky,no strength in her legs hence using a 3 wheel walker. I'm so tired worrying about her & hoping the scan will show some stabilisation of the tumour,& it's stopped growing or hopefully shrunk. I would like her to have a drain as her tummy is so big & base of abdomen is sore.,& she is so uncomfortable, we've lowered her bed so she can get in&out of bed easier,(they're very swollen & her ankles)
Every morning I wake up with that horrible big knot of dread in my tummy,I don't know what day it is sometimes, it's just a massive black cloud hanging over me,& at the centre of it all is my dear mum who I adore. I'm doing everything I can to help her. I have a little cry now & again,but I feel numb as well I'm just "going through the motions" day after day,wishing this was all a bad dream & we're going to wake up soon.ive been with her for every chemo session.
I just hope the scan on Monday, will have made some difference.
