Hello everyone on here
I don’t really know where to start as it’s too overwhelming and I’m still trying to process the news from my surgeon on Tuesday that I have anal canal cancer , spread into vagina & lymph node’s .
my situation started back in September last year when I felt a small lump on the inside of my anus when wiping ( just thought it was a heamoroid)
Bought some anusol , tried for 3 weeks , no improvement.
Went to my GP , she didn’t examine it but just prescribed a steroid cream to try .
The pain was getting much worse and I couldn’t sit down properly without being in pain . Also after every bowel movement the pain was excruciating.
Back to same Gp , was given different ointments and suppositories, 4 weeks later even worse .
I asked for a scan as I knew something wasn’t right and the same GP pushed me to try lidocaine and diltazium, so I trusted her yet again . Still no improvement when I went back 3rd time
She examined me and referred me to emergenciy care centre for a abcess that needed lancing on New Year’s Eve , 6 hours waiting the locum consultant examined me and said it was a chronic fissure ( sent me home with yet more ointment and creams )
4 weeks later getting g a lot worse ; back to Gp and I asked if it’s anything sinister and she just laughed and said oh no nothing like that stop worrying , gtn cream given and told to try that . This gave me pounding head so I had to stop .
Back to Gp yet again , and I said enoughs enough I need referring , so she sent me to a private hospital to have a pre assessment with rectal surgeon
He took one look at it and said straight way it looks suspicious, 2 weeks later I’m in surgery for a biopsy
Had to wait another 2 weeks for results but he sent me to have MRI & CT scan
Another week later I get a call to come and meet with him at the hospital for the results, I knew it was going to be bad news as the nurse came in the room with a box of tissues and a McMillan pack in her hand before I was even told the diagnosis!!
I am now waiting for PET scan results for the grading and have been told chemo & radiotherapy is needed to start with but once the pet scan is back and goes to MDT meeting
The wait is driving me insane !! The pain is horrific
I feel my whole world has been turned upside down
my daughter gets married in August , am I going to be ok to walk her down that aisle ??
thankyou for reading
any advice or guidance will help so much
sorry so long !
