4 months post treatment update

Hello everyone sorry not been on here in a while, I’ve had good days but a lot of bad days too. After treatment healing took about 4 weeks or so ( to be able to wear knickers again ) so I was buzzin about that, but then the anxiety set in and yes I’ve had it before after I had a brain haemorrhage a fair few years ago, so luckily I knew what it was. The doctor gave me sertraline which helps a lot, but then I started feeling very low and not really getting out of bed ( my bedroom has been my safe space through all of this) I am a very lucky lady that has a very supportive partner but I even started pushing him out too. Anyway we booked a holiday as a get to know each other again thing, and omg it was lovely!!! Even had sex first the first time in forever! Apparently I’m a a little bit tighter down below ( lucky man ) and I bled after ( not sure if that’s normal ) but it made me feel like me again. So that’s my story so far and I hope that if anyone on here felt a connection to how I have then feel free to let me know. Ohhh one last thing, I still have bad diarrhoea unless I take a tablet everyday and I think this is my new normal for the foreseeable ( thank god for Imodium) Thanks for listening and sorry if you feel I’m a bit too honest.Take care xx