Hi all, I have not posted before but I have read a lot of useful information during diagnosis and treatment. Bit of background, I was being treated for haemorrhoids or a fissure, after months of pain and not getting anywhere, I went private and during a routine operation to band suspected Haemorrhoids, a rouge ulcer was found, removed and sent for tests. Then it was confirmed it was anal cancer. I finished my treatment of 23 days of Chemoradiiation on 31st Dec 2025, the next two weeks were the worst (but I don’t need to explain that to you all as we have all been there). Once I healed I was then jumping for joy and happy to the point of being annoying. Roll on to now and I don’t even recognise myself anymore. I feel ill constantly, my body just aches and I am tired and don’t have any strength, I thought I would be jumping around making the most of life, instead I’m just falling into depression. I used to go to the gym everyday before, now a dog walk is enough. Just had my 12 week scans but my appointment isn’t for another 3 weeks for the results. Just wondering if anyone else has had the aches, can only describe it as feeling like the blood running through your body is poison, (weird explanation I know).
and how do you get over the guilt of not making every second count when you’re too bloody knackered to do anything?
or am I just feeling sorry for myself.
sorry for the long post
carolyn
