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As an A&E man once said to my husband - it's just a number, nobody knows. 

Didn’t want to read your message and not comment.  I heard you. Make sure you give yourself the time to be sad, it’s really important. The more you hold it in the more it will spill everywhere. Breathe and just keep yourself a float. This is hard and you are doing the best you can. There is no perfect here. Lean anywhere you can, here, friends, or just moments where you breathe. I would consider talking to the children, but that is your call. You don’t have to do everything today. Take care

I know exactly how you feel but I would echo the response from Size4feet. I held it all in for nearly 2 years before visiting my nearest Maggie's centre where I cried and talked for an hour straight! I left feeling exhausted and emotionally spent, but much calmer and able to put things into perspective more. I'm still not sure how I'm going to go through life without my partner by my side, but I'm sure I'll find the strength to do it when needed. In terms of telling the children, that really is your decision to make. Our girls were both in their final year at Uni when we got the diagnosis. We decided to tell them and have been very open and honest with them ever since. It has helped that they are older but it does mean that they understand when things are a little tense at home or when we are both just sad. It also means that we have been able to pack in some amazing holidays and trips to ensure that we all have wonderful memories to carry us through. I lost my own dad very suddenly when I was young and I would have given anything to have had the time that we have had as a family to make these precious memories. It doesn't change our very sad situation, but it has allowed us the time to make the best of it. I wish you all the very best, and please look after yourself in all of this x