Hi,
I'm a little lost and heartbroken. My husband, 58 have hpv cancer 3yrs ago in his neck. We were told if you get cancer that this was the best one as the curable rate was so high. Six weeks of brutal treatment and he came through it.
A couple of months ago I noticed a changed in his voice and nagged him to go back. A large tumor was found on his lymph node, 4.5cm. They can't give him radio again and it's too large to operate. He's hopefully starting immunotherapy in 2-3 weeks with the aim to shrinking and contain....not cure.
They can't tell me how long but I looked online, stupidly, and maybe a Yr....if we're lucky a few more. We have four kids, 25, 22, 15 & 13. Right now we've told them that it is back and going to fight it. Can't face breaking their hearts just yet.
Im just so scared, lost, all of it. He has his own business which needs to go now to avoid stress. I jump from wanting to enjoy every moment to utter panic of doing it all on my own...without him. He is such a wonderful man, he lost both parents to cancer by 40 and has gone through so much.
I need to find a way to stop the tears around him but im drowning. I can't bear the thought of my kids having to go through this.
Sorry, I'm off loading on here 
