It feels like the beginning of the end

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My husband’s prostate cancer has finally become resistant to the medication, with mets in lymph nodes, clavicle  and bones (rt hip, femur and rib) .  He had chemo last year which was only successful for a short time and is currently 4 cycles into a different one, which doesn’t seem to be having much effect so far.  He’s getting some low back pain now which the oncologist vaguely said may be due to the Filgastrim injections he takes after the chemo.  Or it could be new mets in the spine – we won’t know until after he’s had more CT and bone scans in March. 

We were told at diagnosis that it was incurable, aggressive and could only be controlled for so long but now it seems they’ve nearly exhausted all the options and it’s feeling scary, especially as one of the oncologists recommended that an SR1 form be completed for attendance allowance, despite hubby declining it as he’s currently still able to lead a normal life, even with the chemo.  Macmillan/CAB completed it on his behalf and we were shocked that it was granted so quickly.  We Googled SR/1and saw that it refers to people with 12 months or less to live.  His oncologists have always remained non-committal and never given us a prognosis so we’re feeling rather shaken and anxious right now.  It suddenly feels as though the end of the road is finally in sight.

Apologies for venting on here - we haven't mentioned it to friends or family.