Just gave my Dad his first dose of Morphine

KizzyC 5 months ago

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I feel terrible, my wonderful Dad has melanoma with brain other organ metastasis, we've had to stop treatment after only one go as was no longer viable, a few days ago my Dad clearly didn't want any morphine and was happily taking his liquid paracetamol, yesterday and today have not been good days and for the first time he's not been out of bed also sleeping mostly today, this evening he held his head a lot so I'm sure he was in pain, he can no longer speak to tell me so I decided to give him some morphine which bless him he just took, up until now I have told him everything I am giving him but I didn't tell him what this was, feel so bad and like this is this next step bit I don't want him to suffer.

eddiel 5 months ago

Hi KizzyC and welcome, I am so sorry to hear about your wonderful dad and his brave battle with this horrible disease and understand what a heart breaking time you are going through, I was where you are a few years ago, my mum had terminal lung cancer and the pain was getting worse, couldn't get out of bed and the only thing mum could eat was a little ice cream, and seeing mum in so much pain was unbearable so I did what you did and gave her a little morphine in some ice cream, I hated myself for doing it, but after seeing mum in constant pain for two days I had to do something. Thankfully mums pain eased and though mum did sleep for most of the day, when awake the pain was much less and we could even have an occasional short chat. I think mum knew I had given her morphine as i had given it to her in mint ice cream and when she could would ask for mint, We lost mum soon after. Kizzy for a long time I asked myself did I do the right thing, and i believe i did and would do the same again, because I did what i did because i loved my mum, best wishes to you both.

Eddie

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