Hi just wanted to share my journey with my mum . My incredible brave strong mum was diagnosed 4yrs ago with uterine cancer. We r a very close small family just my mum, sister and our extended family’s. Fast forward from 2 rounds of chemo, radiotherapy & hormone therapy and the most positive brave woman is at the end of her life. House bound , (as she hasn’t the energy to even sit in a wheelchair) drugs for pain, sickness, no appetite. Incredible weight loss . Up until today she’s been actually crawling up the stairs and across the landing on all fours to get to bed 
until last night when I had to physically pick her up and carry her into bed . She’s given in and having the bed downstairs which is the most painful decision as she nursed her mum with cancer and in the bed downstairs in the same house. I cannot imagine how she’s feeling and that’s breaking my heart. I don’t know what to say to her . From the very beginning we’ve not cried in front of each other and have been so positive and just got on with it . When she’s lying down she’s chatty and bright but getting sick & weak walking when she’s up for the toilet. My sister and I take turns so she’s got 24hr care and I really don’t know how I would cope without her emotionally as well as physically 
district nurses once a week and our McMillan nurse Hannah who is just amazing . I have been obsessing with ‘ how long have we got ‘ when no one can give u the answer. And does it really matter ? Make everyday count ! As I think about it now I realise how lucky I was to have those precious 4yrs . Luckier than most cause I didn’t take her for granted and how precious every single day was with her. I guess in these situations u grieve even before you loose your loved one and now is not the time . There will be time for that later. So for you in these awful situations I feel u . Reading all your journeys have helped me so I hope this helps someone too. Big cwtches xx
