Anticipatory grief

Heamac1

i am so sorry that you are experiencing the huge highs and lows of supporting and loving someone with terminal cancer. I went through this with my dad last year although only for 4 months. I was exhausted, my best friend helped me during lockdown by staying at home with me caring for dad the week he passed. He had gangrene and it was tough. I can honestly say that although I adored my wee dad I was ready to let him go

... my best friend then sadly passed away in August suddenly … it was totally different… I wasn’t ready!

In October just passed we discovered that my partner has stage 4 prostate cancer with bone and lung mets… I’m devastated beyond words… I’m haemorrhaging feelings of grief and don’t know if I can face this again… the constant highs and lows have begun already .. I have no answers but I’m sending you love and strength to get through this from someone who truly knows anticipatory grief.

I suppose getting support for you is paramount here. So call Macmillan if you haven’t already. I’m here if you need to talk lovely.

xx