How’s everyone else coping with the impending Christmas cheer?!
My wee dad has outlived his 2-3 month prognosis from pancreatic cancer, a diagnosis he just got in July, so now I’ve been told they really don’t have a clue how long he’ll live for. We’re watching tv together and Christmas adverts are coming on and it’s just like a big elephant in the room. My kids are 8 and 6 and they are starting to get excited. I’m just in a weird limbo where I’m quietly trying to get organised for their sakes but can’t bare the thought of it. I almost feel guilty doing it. I’ve no idea if dad will make it, he has no idea. He’s already cried saying he doesn’t want to ruin our Christmases forevermore. Ive reassured him we love him and not to worry and asked him just to go with the flow but don’t actually know how I’ll manage it al practically it as I’m carrying for my dad is is home. my husband has taken compassionate Leave to watch our kids. It’s such a sad time made harder but the awful cancer. My heart aches for my dad.
I suppose I’ll just try and get him to look forward to being part of it, but deep down I’m scared to do that as I know it’s going to hit so hard if he doesn’t make it, even though I’d prepared myself when we were told initially. It’s so messed up. He is very frail but has kind of plateaued. Either way I’m feeling very emotional about it all ;( anyone else feeling like this?
