tough times

Hi there, I’m so sorry to hear that and you’re not selfish. There’s a bit of that in all of us. There’s no handbook for this and you’re not on your own.  We have recently  started our journey too and learning day by day.  However, your doctor isn’t being constructive is he/she? I truly believe that until this has touched you or your loved one, nobody really knows how mind-blowing and life changing it really is. I certainly didn’t and have been looking after patients for years.  Like me, you sound like you need to speak to someone, just for somebody to listen, is there anyone you can contact? It’s not as easy as it sounds is it?  My hubby is actually being stronger than me in all of this and he’s the one who is ill.  I don’t think for one minute she means to do this, we tend to take things out on the ones we love sadly. I don’t know how I would be if I was the one with the cancer. There’s a carers only group I have found on this site? Have you had a  look at that? It’s a place for advice and letting off steam without feeling selfish. I’m sure, like us other carers, you are doing your best for her. Keep loving her and look after yourself too x 

Hi there please dont feel selfish or anything close to that I have those thoughts nearly every day as we unfortunately being the ones closest to them are the punching bags for all there emotions. Our house is like walking on egg shells afraid to say the wrong thing etc. I try to see it as as hard as it is that we are helping them Express how there are feeling venting to us must do some good somewhere along the line although some days it might not feel that way. We are all learning as we go along these horrible journeys. I'm always here if you need a friendly ear. Your doing a fab job dont forget it. Take care of yourself 

Mhairi xxx

Thank you for your words. It is the toughest time. It does help to know you are not on your own in having these uncomfortable thoughts. I Dont want to waste precious time. Back at you at the good job you are doing to. Take care x

sandra