Hi lovely people
The day after I got my breast cancer diagnosis my landlord gave me two months to quit my rented house of 19 years.
I literally don't know whether I'm coming or going. Feeling very stressed and insecure.
I get through the days, which are stupendously busy with admin for getting support of various kinds, including housing. But the nights are hard. When all the friendly helplines have closed down, and my friends are all sleeping. Midnight Woman emerges and prowls around the house, reminding me of all the things I haven't managed to do that day that I still really need to do, worrying about where I will live and how my daughter will cope, and mostly, wondering how to come into some sort of relationship with my cancer, my life, my mortality, and my soul.
I am feeling and thinking things I don't know how to share with my loved ones, and hoping it will be helpful to join others in this experience.
Hi moonmama I think most people will experience the ‘midnight person’ at some point on their journey.
I have been on my incurable cancer journey for over 24 years, I have not had to go through any housing issues but there were many but I g questions that always buzzed around my brain at silly o’clock….. I have a set of notebooks that go back over all my years and this was my go to at night, listing all the thoughts, todo lists, the questions I needed to ask my clinical team…..
The back pages of the note book
s also contained an ongoing dream list….. the dreams that my family and I had for the post treatment times…. many years on these are being ticked off slowly.
I see you have joined and been posting in our dedicated Breast cancer support group…. This is the place where you will connect with others who are walking the exact same treatment journey.
I am sure that you already know that the Macmillan Support Line is open 8am-8pm (timings may differ across services) 7 days a week on 0808 808 00 00 or via Webchat and Email too.
This service provides cancer information, practical information, emotional support, benefits/financial guidance or just a listening ear.
We also have our Ask an Expert section but do allow a few working days for a reply.
Do also check for any Local Macmillan Support in your area, do also check for a local Maggie's Centre as these folks are amazing as you can talk face to face.
Supportive ((hugs)) sent.
