Hello friends
A recent colonoscopy revealed an advanced polyp (16mm) which turned out to be adenocarcinoma. As they can’t be entirely sure it’s all out, I’ve been scheduled for sigmoidoscopy two weeks today to assess for minimally invasive surgery to ensure clear margins.
I’ve spent a torrid couple of weeks with no sleep, shed loads of anxiety driven “symptoms” and a complete inability to function or interact with others - I imagined the worse and thought some very dark thoughts - anger, sadness, guilt, why me etc etc. I wasn’t even able to speak to any of my family other than my husband and was afraid to go to sleep in case I didn’t wake up.
it turns out it was caught early and the chances are it can be removed surgically. Magically many of the “symptoms” disappeared overnight. But the CT scans picked up a spigotted lesion in the apex of a lung and I’ve been referred to the lung team MDT for a view.
I’m grateful tthe lung lesion was picked up and hopefully it will be easily manageable whatever it is. I’m trying very hard to stay grounded until there is a view from the lung MDT next week, but I can feel my stress/anxiety levels picking up again. At least I’m communicating with the rest of the family now instead of keeping them at arms length (well apart from those who were sending me motivational texts).
keep on keeping on everyone
xxx
