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Hello everyone

I was diagnosed with secondary breast cancer with mets in bones and lungs in October. Was given a very rough prognosis of between 5-10 years. Trying to live my life positively, doing lots of things that I’ve wanted to for a long time. But I’m struggling with some big questions and thoughts that no one can really answer. Things like ‘I may not be around to see my grandchildren, or my children meet their life partners (for want of a better word). Something else I’ve been thinking about is what will happen at the end. How will I choose between hopice and home? will I be in pain ? I know there’s probably separate forums for all these thoughts but I just wanted somewhere to put my thoughts. Thank you for reading and if anyone could point me in the right direction for which forums to join I’d be very grateful. Thank you and virtual hugs to all of you going through this too, whatever your cancer and stage. It’s all hard! X

Shadders over 3 years ago in reply to Mmum

Hi Mmum

Thank you for your reply, I’ll join the incurables group thanks for that tip! I am as positive as I can be and try hard not to dwell but I can’t help feeling what I feel! It’s still pretty early days for me and I’m working through it all in my mind. I’m just trying to come to terms with it all. I struggle knowing that I won’t be around for my kids if they go through what I’m going through.. I know I can’t change the future and I make the most of my time with them. I laugh a lot and make sure I keep busy. I am a happy person. But late at night when I can’t sleep are when the more negative thoughts swim round my head. I don’t unfortunately have a Maggie’s Centre near me. I know how amazing they are through my sis in law who used the hospice at the end of her life. . I do have a hospice near though and they have been very good.

Jacqui