Hello
i have just been diagnosed with probably primary liver cancer cancer and am now awaiting a biopsy to establish type and subsequent treatment plan. To say the least I’m devastated at the news and like most folks , did not see this coming. Almost overnight my mood has dramatically shifted and I cannot seem to pull myself into the positive mindset I will require moving forward. It seems like it is taking an eternity to get the tests lined up and as such this is adding to the anxiety with loss of sleep and inability to communicate effectively.
at the moment I’m finding it hard to talk about and am feeling resentful and anger and extreme sadness about the situation. Having only just retired and starting to enjoy life , the rug has been potentially pulled from under my feet. I’m 61 and relatively fit, so hopefully I have this going for me.
I know that these are all negative thoughts but it’s very fresh for me and this has to be a natural reaction, mainly due to the massive uncertainties I am dealing with due to the lack of tests. In my head, the longer it takes, the worse the condition will be as it’s not getting better on its own. Hopefully I will get to hear next week when the appointment will be.
in the meantime, I have reached out to this group and have downloaded relaxation apps etc to try and get my head in the right place. This has to be a positive move so that I don’t wind up being the person folks avoid as they will not feel as though they can approach or support.
anyhow, this is my first blog and in some ways it feels good just to vent on the space. Hopefully there are others out there that have had similar feelings that can share positive input and tips.
thanks
Hi KTU and welcome to the Online Community. We all know exactly what you mean when you say you feel like the rug's been pulled out from under your feet. None of us saw this coming and at the moment it's incredibly hard to process what's going on when your mind is numb and you think why's everything taking an age!
By joining the Online Community you’ve come to the right place to talk to other people who are in the same situation and help you get through this. My cancer is different, but a cancer diagnosis of any kind makes us ask lots of questions, causes confusion, stress and probably emotions we’ve never experienced before. I'm going to suggest you join our Liver Cancer group, this will be a good place to connect with others making the same type of cancer journey.
It’s always helpful to others if you write a little something (or a lot) about yourself and your journey to date. You can enter it into your profile (click on your username and select “Profile”) It’s helpful to other members with a similar diagnosis who can then hopefully answer your questions. It also means that you don't have to keep writing the same thing over and over. You can amend or update it at any time. I'd just copy and paste this, your first post, as it's very informative.
To find more information covering diagnosis and treatments there are pages covering most types of cancers which can be found on our Online Information and Support Section.
The Macmillan Support Services also offer lots of information, support, financial guidance or just someone to listen. It’s free to call 0808 808 0000. Most services are available 8am to 8pm, 7 days a week. Have a look by Clicking here to see what is available and we also have our Ask an Expert section, but do allow two to three working days for replies from our expert team.
Sending you welcoming hugs B xx
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