Hello,
I'm new to the group and I've joined because I am struggling with accepting the size of my new boobs.
I carry the BRCA 1 gene and was diagnosed with x3 negative cancer in September last year. I swiftly had a lumpectomy and sentinel node removed, and nearly 4 weeks ago had a double mastectomy with immediate reconstruction.
I can't fault the consultant's work or the care he offered me post-op, but I have ended up with boobs easily x2 big as they were before. I know I have had a really easy ride compared to so many, e.g. I was spared chemo because they caught the tumour so soon - 6mm and radiotherapy was also not needed, so I feel really ungrateful and as if I'm making a fuss over what is essentially a cosmetic thing. But every time I allow myself to think about it, I get tearful and even cry. What's the matter with me? Will this get better?
Hi and warm welcome to the Macmillan Online Community but sorry that you had to find us and especially sorry to hear about your diagnosis.
A cancer diagnosis can be challenging in so many ways but talking with others who are walking the same type of cancer journey can help you navigate this difficult time.
The Community is organised into support groups so can I recommend you join our supportive Triple negative breast cancer, Breast cancer and BRCA Positive groups, these will be a good places to connect with patients and families navigating the same type of cancer journey.
To join a group just click on the link above then choose 'click to join' or 'join' (depending on the device you're using) on the page that opens.
You can then introduce yourself by putting up a ‘New Thread’ or hit the box with the X on the top right (phones), you could just copy and paste the text from this your first post. You can also join in with existing ‘Discussions’ by clicking on 'reply'.
It’s always good to talk so do call the Macmillan Support Services on 0808 808 00 00 - most services are open 8am to 8pm, 7 days a week Clicking here to see what is available. This service can give lots of information, support, financial guidance or just a listening ear. We also have our Ask an Expert section, but do allow two working days for replies from our expert team.
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