Hi Everyone
My mum had nearly finished her first cycle of Capox for rectal cancer..secondary in liver. First week she felt not too bad ...but since then side effects have just gotten worse. The severe insomnia is making everything so much worse.
We knew it would be very tough...but I just can’t believe how much mum has changed in just over two weeks.
I can see the anxiety setting in.....and I’m starting to worry how on earth she will manage 6 cycles .
Feeling utterly hopeless 
Hi Maccasky and warm welcome to the Macmillan Online Community although sorry that you had to find us and especially sorry to hear about your mum’s diagnosis.
A cancer diagnosis in the family brings many questions but talking with others who are walking the same type of cancer journey will help you navigate this challenging time.
The Community is organised into support groups so can I recommend you join our supportive Bowel (colon and rectum) cancer and Liver, secondary cancer groups as these will be good places to connect with patients and families navigating the same type of cancer journey.
To join a group just click on the link above then choose 'click to join' or 'join' (depending on the device you're using) on the page that opens.
You can then introduce yourself by putting up a ‘New Thread’ or hit the box with the X on the top right (phones), you could just copy and paste the text from this your first post. You can also join in with existing ‘Discussions’ by clicking on 'reply'.
Talking with others caring for family and friends will help a lot so do check out our Family and friends and Carers only groups as you will connect with others walking the same journey supporting family and friends through their cancer journey.
It’s always good to talk and the Macmillan Support Services provides lots of information, support, financial guidance or just a listening ear.
Most services are open 8am to 8pm, 7 days a week and it's free to call on 0808 808 00 00 have a look by Clicking here to see what is available and we also have our Ask an Expert section, but do allow two working days for replies from our expert team.
To find information covering diagnosis, treatments and pages covering most types of cancers can be found on our Online Information and Support Section.
All the very best
