Hello, I am sadly new to this site and am so lost. I lost my beautiful amazing husband of 24 years to cancer 34 weeks ago, he was only 57. He had a 5 year battle with bladder cancer. It won. I could not believe I would never see him again and now 34 weeks later am only just realising that I will never see, hear, cuddle, laugh and be silly together with him.
And I get a little angry if I am honest, at life, at the unfairness of it. Then I feel guilty as he never felt that way through his illness
as even at the end with just days left he said to his consultant in Rowcroft “don’t look so sad, I am fine, there are people out there who are worse off than me, at least I got 5 years out of this cancer”. And that was after suffering terribly for the last year through chemo and the cancer spreading throughout his body. He never ever complained and just wanted to make sure that I would be ok after he went.
I miss him beyond words, I do not feel whole any longer, part of me left when he did.
Thank you for reading my post.
Hi and a warm welcome to the online community
I'm very sorry to read that you lost your husband last year and I'd like to offer my condolences.
The online community is divided up into different support groups so I'm going to recommend that you join the bereaved spouses and partners group which is a great place to give and receive support.
To join just click on the link I've created and then choose 'click to join' or 'join' (depending on the device you're using) on the page that opens. You can then introduce yourself and post in the same way as you did here and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
If you have any difficulty navigating the community just drop me a reply and I'll be pleased to help.
"Never regret a day in your life, good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience"
