Oesophagus cancer, can not operate.

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Attended my first consultant meeting yesterday with my Macmillan nurse, I did not expect all good news but I did expect some hope after only 3 weeks of the oesophagus cancer being found, I was told large lymph nodes surrounded by large tumour with spread to the liver, I was told it can not be operated on !! I can have a stent put in when the time is right for me but that appears to be it, so what now ? The hardest bit for me is facing this alone with no family or friends to give much needed support, mentally I am worn out confused, I can not fight this cancer if it is not operable,

All I can do it seems is get my affairs in order and say goodbye, sorry I was not able to give this sick evil oesophagus cancer afight, no options after after only 3 weeks of knowing.

I feel anger towards my GP who just kept giving me ranitadine and inhalers saying it was COPD despite blood test saying there was a problem for over twelve months.

Alan ( chuddy )

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Dear In regards to your anxiety over the future welfare of your beloved dogs, I wanted to make you aware of the cinnamon trust, they have a website which you may want to check out and learn about the help that can give you if at some point in the future you need help caring for your dogs. Until I became ill I had been a dog owner all my adult life, so understand your concerns.

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Dear Jane , thank you very much for your advice to contact the cinnamon trust - I have never heard of them, they hopefully could be my saviours just knowing that these charity's are there for my dogs would be one hell of a weight off my mind, they deserve the best and with help they will get it.

    Kind regards Alan

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Thanking you, I will be looking them up, I have never heard of them, all help, guidance suggestions gratefully received.

    Kind regards Alan

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    I would like to say a very sincere thanks to all who since this morning when I was walking around lost have taken the time to give me much needed support and guidance, what you have done is relieved my anxiety my deep concerns for my dog's future safety, and I no longer at this time feel alone.

    I would love to shake you all by the hand - thanking you

    Alan

  • Hi Alan,

    I sympathise with your concern about your dogs. You say they are rescue dogs, and I know both rescues where I got my dogs from over the years, have a policy of taking them back if anything changes with the rescuer - so worth checking if you got them through a rescue organisation. As well as the advice re Cinnamon Trust if you need support with them if you had a stay in hospital etc.

    I know you feel hopeless at the moment, but I hope people in the oesophagus group have advice and may give you some hope that just because the cancer is not operable, it does not mean untreatable. The group on this forum- Living with Incurable Cancer -is a good forum to join too. Emphasis on "living".

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    FormerMember in reply to ownedbystaffies

    Hi ownbystaffies, 

    I am pleased to say I have been in touch with the RSPCA and they are willing to take the dogs when ever I need and if I have to spend time in hospital they will put them in foster care home so they will come back with me when I come home, one if not the main cause of my anxiety is looking sorted, I also managed to see my GP this afternoon who was very understanding giving me ta blet's to sort this acid reflux out and something to help me get some proper sleep so I should arrive for my pet-CT scan tomorrow in a better frame of mind.

    I woke this morning after being told yesterday operation was not possible due to the spread of cancer to my liver, I was like a zombie with no sleep and full of concerns ,lost.

    I came on to this group and have come across some amazing caring helpful people, from being confused scared and a little panicked my day soon changed to me feeling positive, I am actually thinking Holiday after having a stent fitted. Thanks to you and all.

    I will look at your suggestions for forums.

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    dear I’m so happy to hear you have found a solution for your anxiety regarding your doggies. 

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Thank you, it is very good news there is some very kind genuine people about, people that are willing to go that extra mile to help it is a big weight of my mind knowing caring help is available.

    I am ending my day much better prepared for what ever lies ahead thanks to this forum, who from the start have pointed me in the right direction with good advice and encouragement.

    Thank you. Kind regards Alan

  • Hi Alan

    I'm glad to hear that you were able to see your GP and he's prescribed some medication for you. Hopefully that, coupled with the fact that you know you have somewhere for your dogs to go if need be, will mean that you get a good nights sleep.

    All the best with your scan tomorrow.

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    FormerMember in reply to latchbrook

    I think tonight I will catch up with some much needed sleep, a lot has been sorted today, I am ready for bed now the new electric blanket is turned on ( yes I know I am a softy ) but I am sure looking forward to getting in a warm comfy bed.

    Tomorrow is an important day for me it will tell me the full extent of what I am facing, I am nervous but the truth must be faced.

    I go to bed in a much better frame of mind than I was this morning, thank you for your good wishes for my scan I will post on my return tomorrow but I will no more after the consultant phones Monday night or Tuesday morning.

    Good night, Alan