Attended my first consultant meeting yesterday with my Macmillan nurse, I did not expect all good news but I did expect some hope after only 3 weeks of the oesophagus cancer being found, I was told large lymph nodes surrounded by large tumour with spread to the liver, I was told it can not be operated on !! I can have a stent put in when the time is right for me but that appears to be it, so what now ? The hardest bit for me is facing this alone with no family or friends to give much needed support, mentally I am worn out confused, I can not fight this cancer if it is not operable,
All I can do it seems is get my affairs in order and say goodbye, sorry I was not able to give this sick evil oesophagus cancer afight, no options after after only 3 weeks of knowing.
I feel anger towards my GP who just kept giving me ranitadine and inhalers saying it was COPD despite blood test saying there was a problem for over twelve months.
Alan ( chuddy )
Hi Alan and a very warm welcome to the online community
I'm very sorry to hear that you have been told that your oesophagus cancer is inoperable and that it has spread to your liver. I cannot begin to imagine the range of emotions that you must be going through as, although I had cancer, mine was not the same as yours.
I can see that you've already had some great support from Sunday sleeper and I'm sure you'll find many others willing to support you too.
The community is divided into groups where people can share their experiences and provide support. There are cancer specific groups and also cancer experience groups. Within the former you might like to join the oesophagus cancer and secondary liver cancer groups and in the latter we have an animals are family too group.
To join any or all of these groups just click on the links I've created and then choose 'join this group' on the pages that open. You can then introduce yourself and post a question after selecting 'start a discussion' and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
When you have a minute it would be really useful if could pop something about your journey so far into your profile as it helps others when answering or looking for someone with a similar diagnosis. It also means that you don't have to keep repeating yourself. To do this click on your username and then select 'Edit Profile'. You can amend it at any time and if you're not sure what to write you can take a look at mine by clicking on my username.
Sending a supportive (((hug)))
"Never regret a day in your life, good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience"
Hi again Alan
I'm pleased that you found my suggestions helpful 
If you haven't already rung your surgery for an appointment then I'd certainly play the cancer card in trying to get an immediate appointment. That usually does the trick in getting to see your GP sooner.
You could also speak to your cancer nurse specialist (CNS) at the hospital that's looking after you as s/he should be able to help you with medication.
x
"Never regret a day in your life, good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience"
