Hi and welcome to the Online Community, although I am sorry to see you finding us.
A cancer diagnosis can bring a lot of stress, confusion and questions but talking with people who are on the same journey can help a lot.
I see that you have found and joined our very supportive Myeloma group, this group will open up your concerns to a wider audience who know exactly what you are going through at the moment.
Just follow the link above then go to the 'Start a Discussion' tab and set up your own Discussion and introduce yourself to the group - you could just copy and paste what you have in this first post.
All the best.
