Had a worlwind couple of months. So many things have happened. I had a catheter fitted because I couldn't wee and thought the tumour had grown over the opening. After a few days the catheter killed and I had what felt like a water infection. After a lot of messing around in hospital the catheter was taken out and I went home with water coming through and it continued okay for a day then today it is not coming through as much. On top of that the other opening for my bowels is dodgy, Got the feeling I needed to go but nothing came. So what next. it was thought the catheter hurt because the tumour was pushing it. So near what will be my last Christmas I don't want to be in hospital. On top of that because of degenerative changes with the cancer making it worse my head is dropping forward. When I get a bit tired it is very hard to hold it up. I am praying I manage to wee and poo tonight. Don't like being admitted on a weekend as not enough people around and everything is rushed. Honestly if a pill was available to put me to sleep I would take it as all I can see is more pain and anxiety. This tumour is horrendous.
JKG
