The dreaded time again!!!

Hi Jane, don't worry you're not the only one acting like this. I got my date for my CT scan on 24th May about 2 weeks ago and I've been churning up ever since, as well as that we have to wait a week for the results.

I'll be thinking of you, good luck for Friday.

Hugs, Barb xx

The CT outcome will be the same if you worry or not. Its easy to say,i know but im only beginning to ACCEPT my situation. Ive tried to be a bit kinder to me, something that isn't so naturally inclined for me. Ive had stage 3/4 cancer for probably 6 Years, 5 Years of undiagnosed but it was everywhere. I guess we need to live in this day and tomorrow arrives anyway..Take care.

Thanks Barb. I know we can’t change the results etc, but doesn’t t stop us feeling miserable and scared. 
Good luck with your results too 

xxx

For me the week before the scan then the however many weeks waiting for results are the worst part of all of this.  Everything is up in the air and you have no idea what to plan for

Scanxiety is a horrible thing. I’m thinking of you both  and MrsBJH and pray for good results for you both xx 

My thinking since 2012 has been to declare that the doctors do not have the last word!  I share a similar diagnosis and have to have chemo every month now. They tell you what they see but when you look to the horizon you are looking beyond what you can see, knowing there is so much more there worth living for.   Is  it true that every blessing in the present generates strength for the future?  My biggest battle is in my mind; believing that the struggle I face in the moment will not last forever and you're right, worrying never achieves anything.  

Exactly, the lead up is awful and then the waiting. Can’t make any plans, as you say. 
Just been to parents and had a good cry on my mums shoulders.  
xx

Thank you Chelle xxx

You can't change anything by worrying, it's true. But you can give yourself a way through by making little plans - maybe one for each day like 1) Gonna have a jam doughnut with my coffee 2) get a pizza delivered like Richard and have a glass of wine with it with the family (or several!) 3) Time for a special chocolate treat today 4) a walk out somewhere and take a little picnic with me. 5) record your day like a journal with photos - even if it's just an everyday exercise of domestic jobs. Writing stuff down like that is very therapeutic, even if only you look at it.   Hugs. Rainie x.

I have developed a Buddhist mindset which has strengthened me during this time to the point where i just try and live NOW . My body will do what it wants in the end, but in the meantime i can free myMIND until i die. You see i dont see the future because no one is guaranteed anytime or horizon. Just today i managed to walk my body to the bluebell woods nearby. To be in the that nature was liberating. I struggled with pain but one day i will be free of it.PEACE