It’s the dreaded scan time again. CT scan this Friday, to see if the radiotherapy has been effective on the tumour recurrence!
How on earth are we supposed to relax, at times like this?
I’m running about like a headless chicken….. and hiding away from everyone! I just keep planning, and reorganising my funeral, death, finances, as I feel it’s the only thing I have control over!
I just can’t stand conversations , as want to shout and say ‘I don’t care what Tom, Dick or Harry are doing!
I feel like such a horrible person!
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Thank you. Yes, I’m the same, the build up and then the waiting. I’m just soooo angry , and can’t control it, it’s horrible 
You too xx
Oh Jane I've commented on here a few times about my mood swings, anger I clean the 
like a mad woman it helps. Today is an on the couch day feel very lethargic, so resting for a bit. But I do feel well, tried to put the kettle in the fridge again so I'll take that as good sign lol
Take care Xx
Yes, scanxiety is horrible, My last one showed stable mabel ish but that I needed bone scan for area to check in more detail. So now I have bone scan next week - radioactive injection in the morning, then scan few hours later. That will be fun, told to keep away from children and pregnant women for a few hours. I mainly try to keep away form children anyway
. No one said anything about dogs though - glow in the dark dogs would be good. Seriously though, I will be waiting for those results with bated breath, so soon after Ct results - it is all such a waiting game. I try to put it out of my mind between the actual scan and results - given there is usually several weeks. Good luck with the horrible in between time,
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