Morning all, hope you are all keeping well.
Had an appointment with my Oncologist yesterday, he authorised another 9 chemo's. But I haven't yet had a scan to see what effect the first round of chemo has had. He said on the basis of questions he's asked me, my responses and the look of the area concerned is a clear indicator that the chemo has had some effect on the tumour. This is positive news right? But still I am mentally unable to accept it and remain pessimistic to safeguard myself. I believe this is because I have no faith and went through such a bad rollercoaster time when they were trying to find a diagnosis. I mean amongst other mishaps they completed a scan and advised me it wasn't cancer I had a bleed. Yeah right, I actually had a 15 cm tumour, how the hells bells do you miss that on a scan huh!! Now when they give me positive news, I struggle to accept it as I'm so scared they'll give me hope but then only take it away again down the line. Does anybody else feel this way?
Food shopping today and I think a cream cake is in order! Hope you all enjoy your day whatever it is you may be doing.
Good evening Marie, and family, hope you have had a wonderful time in and around Inverness, one of my favourite regions in Scotland, I see the weather has been good up there, sunny 
been Cold , rainy 
and miserable here all day, did I mention it all day Will look forward to hearing what you and the gang got up to today and have planned for tomorrow in the sunshine , just wanted to say, I saw my GP this morning 
just for bloods and showed him my hernia, was told I needed surgery 
asap and he called my cardiologist and they're doing it early on Wednesday, PS not my GP and cardiologist, hopefully a surgeon LOL, not expecting any problems as having it done with nerve blocks so no chance of clog popping , should still be able to keep in touch, and the trip to the Scilly Isles is still 
on but put back a couple of days , hope you had another lovely 
day and are listening 
to your body , sorry I have to ask, what amenities do you have, a roof would be nice , take care, please.
Eddie xx
Hi Marie, sorry about the late reply, been a difficult day, but good to be home 
, even if its my new home "Sheila's ", Thank you, I will be fine 
for the Scilly's
Not a lot of wildlife photos, that's a shame, but that's Scotland wildlife is very hit and miss but can be spectacular. maybe next time.
Loch Ness is awesome, never been on it, or been to Urquhart castle, but like Fort Augustus it's always busy and the view up Loch Ness is fab, you don't drink enough to see Jessie, everyone knows that
Lovely places you visited today, did you notice the palm trees at Plockton, its a special place, good food as well.
Was nice to leave hospital earlier than expected, not done much, taking it easy, did get a call from the hospital, they've put my scans together so don't need to go to 2 different hospitals tomorrow and they fit in perfectly with my existing appointment.
Sorry to hear your tummy and bowels are a little upset, probably to be expected 
I think a lot of people get the same, it's hard for the digestive system to with different foods and water, and I'm not surprised it hasn't stopped you and your tired I would be as well. Thank you Marie, but I feel ok, had some upsetting news today, not about me, so I may not be on the forum much for a while, but will still look forward to your Scottish adventures, how are your fellow travellers doing, say hi to Dave and Amy for me.
love Eddie xx
