It's been a month since my diagnosis by the urologist. Some days are better than others. Denial seems to help. During this time I spent 12 days in hospital having a pleural effusion drained and an infection treated.
I am finding confronting reality hard. I feel sick with fear when I think about it. I have my first oncology appointment next Monday morning, so may have a better idea then of how much my cancer has spread, and any treatment options.
I have no idea how the process of dying happens over the weeks and months before death. I don't know what to expect. Any ideas on how to find out, and how to not be paralysed by fear so I can make the most of what time I have left?
I am already weak, and have no appetite, so I am expecting oncology to say my kidney cancer which has spread to both lungs is already quite advanced.
I read the posts on this group and admire how you keep going. I want to be like that, not fade away in fear and misery.
