Three Good Things

Hi  Claire

Sometimes a moan is what is needed and here on this sight is the place to do it because we’ve all been there and we all understand.

I moaned on here on Friday and it helped as it’s hard to do so to my family although this weekend has broken that a bit.

It’s been a roller coaster time.

Friday and Saturday were very dark then Sunday I brightened, which I really needed as ex’s Big B’day and knew he’d be splashing out and would love to know what I’m going through. - no contact for years thank goodness. So I needed a good day.  I got the good deal, my girls and grandchildren, he got the money, status, title etc but what does that mean!

Monday was good too and I had expected and intended to wake up yesterday with intentions to do so much eg. Sainsburys! But didn’t sleep much and got up feeling drunk and woozy and haven’t touched a drop in weeks!

Bloods today gave no reason so hope it goes and is not yet another side affect.

1. After crying on the phone last night to my eldest, something I can’t remember ever doing before, she came round and stayed and chatted and brought me two small Easter egg cartons (reduced) and she turned a horrible day into a lovely memory.

2. Same daughter (they all 3 do their bit) took me for bloods today and we talked and talked and laughed and laughed.

3. I have 2 weeks without treatment or appointments.

Only those of us who live like this see and appreciate the good bits so much more.

XX

Hi

It sounds rather as though we are all struggling. Yesterday was the anniversary of my ex husband moving out. Next week he will marry his pregnant girlfriend. Our youngest is going to Serbia for the ceremony and I know I am going to find that hard. Plus fatigue is getting the better of me. On the plus side, I’m not in pain and I have this thread of three good things to focus my mind on the fact that in amongst all this, there are good things. So for today, right now: 

1. The friendship I find here and the trust we have that allows us to share how we really feel, good and bad 

2. I just ate a hot cross bun with lots of butter

3. The company of my lovely niece who is here all week 

xx

Hi

Just think of all those sleepless nights HE is going to have!!

Mine got at least some of his just deserts with his new model. She had a temper too! I was relieved when she took him out of our way. Yesterday was the anniversary of me leaving him for the penultimate time at 18 weeks pregnant. I did try for the children but finally left for them.

You are worth more.

1. Sun is out.

2. Finding people here I can trust.

3. Just ate 2 packets of Crisps. Yes 2! (Mini ones)

XX

Oh, those men sound awful. 

I have to confess I just stole and ate my husbands chocolate Easter bunny (Lindt - very yummy!). He doesn't look impressed so think I'm in the dog house! Oops! Not feeling so guilty though - maybe that's a side effect of the treatment or all my ridiculous health complaints - that's todays excuse anyway. 

Oh and did I tell you why I stole it - I have just realised the children have given me nits! Yes, head lice! I cannot believe it. Needed the sugar rush, so the bunny got it. There will be a mass delousing happening in South Wales tonight - you may well hear the screams from where you are... Wish me luck! 

Big hug to you friends. 

xx

Oh Daloni

I am so concerned for you that you never seem to be able to shrug him off. Since the horrible things that you had to endure from the very start when he broke the news I have been trying to help you stay in control. I'm still on your side, I wish I could give you a hug, your youngest daughter must be very confused as well as hurt, your eldest daughter has no intention of going? I wouldn't think there is a cell in your body has the remotest intention of going, let's hope that this finishes soon, but there is the birth to go through. I hope that you can then finally get rid of the nasty aroma that's hanging around.

Tvman xx

I agree with Tvman

Unfortunately children often do get hurt as well as you. Mine did in different ways but it made them stronger, understand life more and our bond is amazing. Life as we well know is not fair. But life is also about learning from experiences. Good and bad.

Sending you hugs Daloni.

XOXOX

Ah thanks tvman

Do you know what? I am largely in control and happy a lot of the time. I have a lot of love and a lot of friends in my life. I am ok financially. 

I’ve been working hard on finding some peace. When I find myself thinking about him (and we were happily married for 17 years before he had his breakdown so thinking about him is as much a habit of mind as anything) I say to myself “I wish you well. I wish you well. I wish you well”. Out loud if need be. My head knows it’s the right place to be. My heart, not so much. But that will come. 

Xx

Daloni, I like your mantra.One day you will find you really do mean it from the heart, I believe.

Claire and SussexOvarian, A good moan and wallow can be cathartic.

Claire, So sorry you have such work delousing!  Just the ordinary acts of living can be overwhelming when you have CA. You do not deserve extra!

Three things:

1) The narcissus in my garden have opened. The white with tiny crimped cups with orange rims.

2) Hubby took me to sewing group this morning where I enjoyed woman talk and lemon cake.

3) Received a packet in post. My sister sent the book Cancer as a Turning Point.

Until tomorrow.

Hi all,

Three good things

I have finished packing and am ready for my holiday

I had a lovely lunch out with a friend

I have now got pink and blue bluebells out in the garden. 

I do love to see the spring flowers coming out and although it has been much colder today they do look lovely. I have a couple of pesky squirrels that come into the garden, there could be more of them but the most I have seen together is 2. I had seen one doing something with one of my pots but didn’t know what he was up to. Well I do now, cheeky beggar had dug up one of my hyacinths!! I have replanted it again and he hadn’t better try it again else I shall be telling him he will be the main ingredient in a stew!! I don’t eat meat and wouldn’t want to hurt him but he doesn’t dash off if I come out. It’s only when the dog spots him that he runs away. Jimmy gets lots of exercise chasing him but he hasn’t got a hope of catching him.

Hope you are all as well as can be.

love and hugs 

Maggie xx

Good morning Maggie.  Yes we are off on holidays too, a week in Devon.  We need it!!  Hope you have a lovely break and everyone else has a good weekend

love

Gaynor