Hi all I feel a little bit of a fraud to be honest , but thought I'd share my thoughts.
Just finished treatment for radiotherapy maltoma lymphoma Lung .
Its left me feeling quite low in mood & apprehensive about the result ,positive thinking that it's gone, but cannot stop thinking beyond that .
I thought I would be glad that its finally been treated after 3 years watch & wait progression twice.
I'm off work & cannot bring myself to go back ,working in the hospital loving my job .
But I've lost all my confidence & feel so emotional at times feel even started to feel jealous of of my support bestest friends cos they have more energy & enthusiasm than myself right now .
Wish I could snap out of feeling so low maybe the cough flue which I've picked up is adding to the way I'm feeling .
Life after treatment isn't what I'd expected.
Thought I'd be buzzing back at work happy that the old me has returned back to help others ...enjoy banter have a little fun .
From what I've read it seems quite normal I guessing I will get there ....
I wish everyone on here my best wishes you are truly inspiration xxx
Hi Lisa
Thanks for your response I know that many people will think the same about being so near to the cancer unit after they have moved on and it probably brings back the memories one doesn't need or want but you don't have to visit a Macmillans centre at a hospital, they come to you with their The Macmillan mobile information Big Green Buses one of them will be in the Cardiff area during March and April just waiting to welcome you, can't promise you a cup of tea but can assure of welcoming face
On Monday 23 March 2020, Location:
Outside Lifestyle Shopping
Parc Ty Glas
Llanishen
CF14 5DY
Opening times:
09:00 - 15:000
On Tuesday 24 March 2020, International Sports Village
Cardiff Bay
CF11 0JP
Opening times:
09:00 - 15:00
On Wednesday 25 March 2020,.
Location:
Tesco Extra Excelsior Estate
Excelsior Road
Cardiff
CF14 3AT
Opening times:
09:00 - 15:00
On Thursday 16 April 2020,.
Location:
Asda Newport Superstore
Pencarn Way
Duffryn
NP10 8XL
Opening times:
09:00 - 15:00
On Friday 17 April 2020,
Location:
Friars Walk Shopping Centre
John Frost Square
Newport
NP20 1UH
Opening times:
10:00 - 16:00
If you are near one they really are worth a visit you can't miss them they are green, they are big and they are Macmillans.
The buses are all kitted out with facilities,to make people feel at home and have a quiet space where you can have a one to one with a trained volunteer and discuss any problems you are having, they can also advise on local activities that are going on.
Sorry to hear about mum, I know from previous conversations that she is a fighter and I'm sure she'll continue to do as for dad well everyone knows if a dad is moaning he is happy fine.
I wanted to send a like to your reply but for some reason my like button has disappeared but then I thought your reply and original post didn't need a like but what you really needed was a big 
which is sent to embrace you all, enjoy.
Ian
Cwitch is Welsh for a cuddle or hug
