I am currently undergoing treatment, just had my third cycle of chemo. I've had a mastectomy and will have radiotherapy once the chemo is finished. I hadn't really thought about it before, but the question came across my mind the other day...."what if the treatment doesn't work?" What if I still have the cancer? It isn't really something that I have mentioned to my husband as I don't want to upset him and I don't think it has crossed his mind. I think he assumes I will have the treatment and everything will be sorted and fine. Have other people had these thoughts - it's just making me feel a little depressed and alone.
Hi Choctea and a very warm welcome to the online community
I don't think there's anybody here who won't have had the same thoughts and worries as you're having now at some point during their treatment.
As you've mentioned having a mastectomy I'm thinking that you're probably being treated for breast cancer. If I'm right could I suggest that you join the very friendly breast cancer group where you can discuss your worries with others who will understand how you're feeling.
To join just click on the link I've created and then choose 'join this group' on the page that opens. You can then introduce yourself or post a question after selecting 'start a discussion' and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
When you have a minute it would be really useful if could pop something about your journey so far into your profile as it helps others when answering or looking for someone with a similar diagnosis. It also means that you don't have to keep repeating yourself. To do this click on your username and then select 'Edit Profile'. You can amend it at any time and if you're not sure what to write you can take a look at mine by clicking on my username.
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Welcome to the community and sorry you are having to go through this.
Your thoughts and feelings are completely normal and there is lots of support available to you from the online community.
I can understand that you don't want to share these feelings with your husband. It is hard to share things that will add to the pain that loved ones are experiencing.
This forum is a good place to be able to express these feelings with people experiencing similar thoughts and hopefully this will help you feel less alone in dealing with this.
Hi Choctea,
Your treatment sounds similar to mine. I had mastectomy first, then chemo and Rads.
You certainly won’t be the first to think this. But I hold on the fact that some ppl who I know had chemo first and it really did a great job and shrunk tumours down to virtually nothing, so I think for ppl who have mastectomy first the tumour is gone straight away and the chemo and rads are just a precaution which is what my oncologist told me.
Please don’t feel alone, someone is always here to chat.
Im having a check up with my Breast Surgeon tomorrow and have another appointment for November as well. I presume one appointment will be for a mammogram and I know once I have that I’ll be worried, but I’m trying to be positive and I know it’s not easy.
Wishing you well.
“Don’t let tomorrow’s rain, spoil today’s sunshine”
T x
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