Hello,
My husband had surgery on the 5th May and "we" are living with his stoma quite well I think. Every now and then I think to myself that this is for life and I struggle a little bit with that - he seems to be obsessed with the bag filling up - or not. This week we went to oncology and he was told that the operation had taken all the bad bits out but they wanted to offer him 12 sessions of chemo just to ensure that the cancer doesn't come back. more a preventative than a cure situation. He agreed to the chemo and it starts next week probably.
His reaction to this is to say that he is cured and he is happy - very positive and not worried about the future.
My reaction is more muted. I cry when I think about it. I can't stop crying. I'm no-where near as happy as he is and I really don't know why. Do I believe he is cancer free? I don't know. I guess I can't bring myself to think that just in case it's not true.
Is my reaction normal ?? have others felt like I do ? one of my friends has said that they think I'm worrying about the next six months and how tough it will be - I honestly don't know.
T
