Dealing with the anxiety of Cancer with everything around me falling apart

Hi Artsie. You scream as loud as you like. Life can seem very unfair at times and you seem to have had a lot thrown at you all at once. There is actually a board called The Room where you can shout and swear and generally let off steam and then ‘close the door behind you?’

https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer_experiences/the-room-forum

Don’t forget you can chat to the nurses on 0808 808 00 00 or chat with your own gp if you need some extra support?

Sending a big virtual hug your way

Take care

Karen x

Thanks Karen

I've joined. I definitely need some space to scream. It’s usually in middle of the night. So the rooms perfect 

sending you a virtual hug too.  
Oh wouldn’t it be great therapy to hug for real 

Ann x

Hey Artsie - I'm so sorry to read this. You know, life can be so cruel, and sometimes it seems that it's being especially cruel to you (whilst all around you people seem to be just fine). I'm in a similar boat, the last 4 years have been extremely unpleasant, but it's weird in my case because having gone through such an awful time, I ended up almost more content than I used to be. At the time when I had taken more than I could cope with, I gave my brain a restart and decided to fill it with nice things. I find I stop and stare more at the world around me. For example, when I walk in the woods with the beauty all around me, I'm in heaven because I'm not wired up in hospital. I decided to think about all the things that I've always wanted to do but never did and actioned them. For example I have such a love of history and always wanted to metal detect but never got round to it, I decided to put a post on the Haslemere Facebook page saying that I've been through a bit of a time, and I'm now looking for a kind farmer that would let me metal detect on their farm. I was so pleased when one got back to me and said come on down my land is yours. I spend wonderful hours hunting old things, my mind is in the moment and not on dark things. And I have other instances of doing things I never got round to doing which I won't bore you with, but now do because I went through the bad times. My mind is now full of things of interest, I also help others that are not having a good time, which gives my suffering purpose. But one big lesson I found out, was that I am not the only one whose been dealt a bad hand, life in generally by design is really hard and cruel, and we all get by the best way we can. But we either rage against it, or beat it. I raged, then beat it. I'm in a happy place now, I hope with all my heart you can find that place too.

Hi Steve,  

Thanks for your positive motivating post.

I was naturally an upbeat drive people nuts character, full of life and fun and hope that once the barrage of tests and appointments we have to go through for the Parkinson’s treatment I will definitely take your advice.

There’s things that I will edit from my time and things I definitely will add. 
I was an uptight graphic style hobby artist, the first thing I plan on doing is selling the stacks of it upstairs,  buy a massive canvas and throw paint at it I need to definitely loosen up.

Thanks also for your heartfelt kindness,

kind regards

Artsie