Results day

Hello Tinkerbell

I am sorry that you are feeling so anxious and stressed, have you got someone who can go with you. Ask this person to taken notes as you will probably not be able to take in everything that is said When you meet with the team please tell them right away that you are feeling very anxious and you have a needle phobia. They are used to people experiencing this and will support you in looking at different ways of dealing with this. It may be that you can be treated at your GPs or you get tablets instead of needles. I think your  anxiety is making you more muddled and you are imagining the worse, remember you will only be there for a short time and it will be over before you know it. Waiting is the worst thing most of experience and we all understand how you feel. It is a horrible feeling. I get prescribed medication from my GP to help me cope and this is something they should be able to do for you. Have you tried counselling our mindfulness which is a way of calming your  mind. Is there a Maggies or a cancer support group near you as it can help to share your feelings with others experiencing the same thing. Be kind to yourself, if you are still awake, try and listen to the radio or music that you like or watch something undemanding on the tv that will send you to sleep. Try and think of something nice to do after your appointment, go for coffee with a friend or plan to do something that you really like doing. Remember the hospital team have worked with thousands of people and they have made a good recovery. You are not alone a once to day has passed you could find out what support is available for the future.. I realise your mind will be feeling jumbled but while you are waiting distract yourself by making your Christmas card list!  Remember   this is only one short day  and you will get through it. We are all  behind you!

Good luck,,I will be thinking of you

Love  and hugs

Pat xx

Good morning lady_tinkerbell I do hope that you had some sleep.

I think we can a relate to how you feel and you have received some great advice from Pat.

A cancer journey often means that we are not in control of everything that goes on around us....... being a very organised person it took me time to understand that I could only control some of the aspect of my cancer journey and I concentrated on these parts.

Getting clear information.

Understanding what the plan is for the weeks, months and my case many years.

Having people around me that I could talk with and especially going to appointments with me.....but this role was mostly done by my long suffering and wonderful idea.

I am actually ok with needles...... good thing when I have a blood cancer but dentists!!!...... this is my worst nightmare all stemming back to my early 20s

5-6 years back when I was getting all the tests for going for Stem Cell Transplant I was wheeled down to the hospital dentist, with my double chemo pumps on a stand beside me and I was thinking....... “I would be happy to have weeks more chemo than be walking in to see a dentists”

I told them that I had a massive fear but they were great and did not need anything done. My wife could not believe it as the last time I had seen a dentist had been over 20 years back

Now I go quite confidently every 6 months and have even had some treatment done.

I think what I am saying is it’s all about control the battle between the ears.

My 20 year cancer treatment journey has provided some challenging times and have had to face some very difficult and at times life threatening moments (see my profile) but the one thing that was always top of my list in my thinking was I was never alone - the Father was with me in everything and he helped me understand that I HAD to keep my thoughts on the greater good in all that was going on around me.

We will be holding your hand in a virtual way today and plead come back and tell us how you got on.

((hugs))

So sorry  lady-tinkerbell to read of your distress. I see you already have been given some great ideas to help you regulate your fears, but it’s just not easy, is it! 
I think we would all probably agree that waiting is the most difficult part in our diagnosis. It never ceases to amaze me how are thoughts can weave so many twisted negative stories in our head! I like to stamp on lies and stick with focussing on facts. I also work at doing activities that increase my joy ,like visiting friends or feeding the garden birds etc...

Its so good that you had the courage to reach out, rather than cope with this alone.I want you to know that we are standing with you on this journey.  
bless you. Praying for Gods peace to bring you rest.

much love

So sorry  lady-tinkerbell to read of your distress. I see you already have been given some great ideas to help you regulate your fears, but it’s just not easy, is it! 
I think we would all probably agree that waiting is the most difficult part in our diagnosis. It never ceases to amaze me how are thoughts can weave so many twisted negative stories in our head! I like to stamp on lies and stick with focussing on facts. I also work at doing activities that increase my joy ,like visiting friends or feeding the garden birds etc...

Its so good that you had the courage to reach out, rather than cope with this alone.I want you to know that we are standing with you on this journey.  
bless you. Praying for Gods peace to bring you rest.

much love