Just wondering if there are any On Line Gay Mens Widower Groups in the UK ?
I would be most grateful to be pointed in the right direction as Im having issues after losing my soul mate of 10 years who I supported financially and loved with all my heart
I lost my wonderful long term partner and husband to be to cancer last Aug 2018, I do not have close family my self for support and have received zero kindness and empathy from my sweethearts family which would brake his heart if he knew how mean they have been. I was not aloud to see him when they took over caring for him 5 months before he passed, they lied about me and tried to turn him against me in the name of God ! Yes you guested it church goers. I was not told the name and address of the hospice the was taken to end of June 2018 when he took a turn for the worse. I was told if I did find out and turned up I would be turned away. After 2 weeks I did find out where he was and sent him numerous gifts including 100 roses non of which he saw. The heart brake took a tole on me and I was taken into hospital 3 times end of July 2018, with stress related illnesses. My husband somehow found out and video called me via Whatsapp and said he was sorry for what his family had done, I signed my self out of hospital and found my way travelling 150 miles to my husband only to be shouted at by his half brother for no reason at all..it was as if he blamed me for cancer....on the 4 occasions I was aloud to see my sweet heart I was not aloud to be with him on my own, more that 30 mins each time, we held hands so tight looked in each others eyes and cried, which his half brother detested and said the most evil comments across the room whilst watch his war films and rock music on the hospice patients tv.
We just wanted to be alone as we planned in a room full of beautiful flowers, cards, music and love. Had we had been married I guess I could have ensured my sweet heart was surrounded by what I gave him for all most 10 years true love.
During my sweethearts final week I was not aloud to see him and hold his hand has we had for 10 years, I was hurting so much and all I did was worry and cry for my soul mate for what his family were doing to him it was all so cruel. I was the last person to be told he had passed on Aug 26th 2018 it destroyed me. I was not invited to the crematorium I was not told the location date nor time, they burnt up my sweetheart without even allowing me to say good bye. Following this I was given a few personal things in a rut sack a fraction of all the lovely things I had bought for him over the years, what broke my heart was the laptop I bought him was return and all of our 1000s home vidoes and selfies of our many holidays, adventures, romantic meals birthdays and beautiful moments we shared were all deleted from the laptops hard drive, which my sweet heart had backed up to Google, however they deleted his emails, mobile, facebook, instagram, linkedin account etc which out my knowledge thus I lost access to our back ups. I will never be able to hear my sweet hearts voice, see him smiling and laughing I can begin to put into words what his family have done to us. Then after all this I have been harassed by email for money and had to seek legal advise to stop this evil behaviour. Im sorry to rattle on but Im in a bit of a mess. I know this cant be normal and feel it would be wise to seek comfort from other gay men who have lost their love as only us gay chaps truly understand gay love, I have tried therapy but it does not work for me....
Any advise would be much appreciated
Cheers guys
Christian
Sorry about my grammar this speak to text app is rather bad
