Don't pray for me

Sending some hugs your way for now.  

I can see why that got under your skin. It's tactless. I think in their minds, religion is what you need, what will help most, so religion is what they send. but very thoughtless, and not what you need right now.

I had loads of friends and acquaintances who all said, "Don't worry, you'll be fine." I needed that, but I'm deeply grateful to the friends who let me talk about the possibility that it wouldn't be fine.

We're here to listen.

Hugs.

You're very kind Gail, thank you.

Thanks for your nice post and your understanding of how I'm feeling. I think you're right that some people only know religion, and it's what their whole life revolves around. The thought that some people don't have the same faith as them is alien in their minds. I've been brought up being smothered by it so I guess in a way I'm rebelling and can be super sensitive when someone throws their beliefs at me. I think most of my parent's church are praying for me and I'm half expecting their minister to turn up at my door! In a way I actually want him to so I can let off steam. Hehe.

What I really need is people to talk to or just sit with and chat. I've never known many people and it's times like this I wish I had lots of friends.

We're here.

I can see how your upbringing would make you more sensitive. So would being told you have cancer! 

When I'm waiting for test results I don't consciously feel worried, but I'm forgetful, clumsy and irritable.

Do you want to talk about the results you've got and/or ones you're waiting for? In many ways that was the worst time for me. I thought such  a large sarcoma must have metastasized, and I wasn't at all sure I would see Christmas.

That was 3 years ago, and I'm in remission.

I think I'm over-sensitive in many ways. Actually I have been for years, but that's another story. It's been a strange upbringing and has made me into a strange person!

I'm not waiting for any results for now, but shall be soon. I've got surgery in a couple of weeks to remove my left Kidney. After that they'll do tests on it to see what sort of cancer it is, but I have no idea what they're looking for or how long results will take. I'm not sure I want to know too much at this point.

It's great that you're in remission now 3 years later. I'm not sure what my future holds at all any more. I guess I'll know more after my op.