hello everyone im new to this site but felt that i needed to be close to people who understand the hurt that cancer does to everyone that it affects im a proud auntie to the bravest little girl i have ever met my gorgeous Amy~lou, she has been fighting a are form of cancer for the past 5 years shes 12 now and was diagnosed when she was 7 we were told the beginning of this year that amy cant fight this battle to win any more and its been the most heartbreaking few months of all our lives watching her go from this really active crazy and gorgeous 12 year old to a frail little girl in constant pain who we long to see smile just one more day seeing the sadness in her eyes and the fear tares us all apart and not being able to help her when she cries out in pain is just the hardest thing to have to sit back and watch .my sister dawn and amys dad paul are struggling so much with whats happening and i am so worried for both of them in march when we were told that amys treatment was no longer working was such a sad day for all of us and to make things even more unfair the day before we were told i found out i was pregnant and the 1st person i told was my amy, she was so excited and txt me back saying she wanted to be my birthing partner and i was so happy then in the matter of a day my world fell apart because i knew that she was not going to be here in november to meet her baby cousin. i had a 3D scan done the other wek and we got a dvd of the baby so amy could see the baby and before we went i said to amy keep your fingers crossed for a boy, when we had the scan we were told it was a girl and when we rang amy to tell her she said GOOD i was praying for a girl i feel so sad that she wont get to meet her in person xxxx