hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
Marie, i hope its decaf coffee?? otherwise you'll never sleep. I know i said i was going to bed, but theres ANOTHER fishing dvd been put on, oh joy, yawn..........
No Its not.Thats probably why i have trouble sleeping.Might make a milky coffee- that might be better.
Louise-i was only gently pulling your leg.I see you've removed your earlier post,but it didn't show you up in any way - honestly. It wasn't a coarse remark of any kind that you posted,so anyone wondering why i said Louise was corrupted,i was just having a bit of fun and Louise- you are a really nice person.!!!
I know you were only having a laugh. Just remembered where I was, that was all. Thank you both for cheering me up tonight. Off for my banana. Night night xxxx
How was your day (a bit late asking, sorry).Glad to hear you’ve sent the care work application off, I hope you get the reply you're after.Sometimes people take ages to get back to you don’t they.Did you get out and about today?It was such a lovely day here too, not sure its going to stay like it for the rest of this week, but hopefully next week when you're all away it will be good.What are your plans for this week?Will you be out and about with the boys?Or do they do their own thing?Knees a lot better, back is much the same really, thanks for asking.I’ll be back tomorrow if you're around and fancy chatting.Hope you sleep well tonight, love jayne xxx
I hope i havent offended anyone either, just trying to cheer myself and everyone up, so will go away now and leave you all alone. see you soon. jayne xxx
You guys are hilarious Im sorry I missed all the fun!! Lousie what did that deleted post say!!!???? You have all made me smile, though wont tell husband as he will be looking for other uses with that banana! Glad you all seem to be in good spirits tonight its very nice to see and Im sure no one will be offended.
Took the kids to a lovely park today and of course to shops!! Something for them something for me - not that i bought myself anything - got far to many clothes now that mums are all in my wardrobe - we were similar sizes, and even some that are a bit big can be taken in, she had great taste in clothes so there was no way or need to get rid of them, though of course I did give some to my mums sisters too, just couldnt have had everything, there was so much.
Liz, I hope your dad is okay. It will be hard visiting the hospital, keep strong and your dad will be glad of your love and support. Take care Liz and dont work to hard.
Nicki Im sorry you are feeling so low at the moment and really hope you can find the strength to ignore those other thoughts. You have so much to live for even if it doesnt feel like it at times. Your mum will be with you as you plan your wedding and she will be so proud of you. Come here and talk to us about it too it will be something nice to focus on and think about. Your dad will get stronger, its such early days and my dad was same with those sad eyes that you just dont know how to brighten up. My dads eyes seem to have lifted a biot recently - he sold my mum and his home and has just moved into a smaller apartment and it seems to have helped him, he was so sad and lonely in old house and found it particularly tough at night, he said he is sleepingbetter in new place and although he does wake up during night he is getting back to sleep easier. We just have to be there for them and talk to them and let them talk to us, its hard to support them when you feel down too but together you will get stronger. I hope your fiancee is okay, you dont need anything else to worry about do you. Take care, sending you lots of love
xxxxx Amanda
I'm so sorry you feel the way you do, the bad days sometimes seem to never end.Its hard enough coping with your own grief, but to see your Dad hurting so much as well, its awful.I know some of the girls on here have been talking lately about counselling and medications, have you talked to anyone about this, maybe it would help.I know its not for everyone, but if you feel so low anything is worth a try. I hope your boyfriend is feeling a lot better, a bit of a scare for you and something you don’t want right now.Everything seems to be coming at once for you.The only thing I can think of to say about your mums birthday on Friday is, it will be a very sad day obviously, but thankfully easter doesn’t come at the same time every year, so next year good Friday hopefully wont fall on your mums birthday and will be a different day.I know its not much consolation and you will still miss her on every birthday, but at least you wont feel like everyone around you is happy and enjoying their holiday when all you want to do is think about your Mum.
Your family are definitely right about your wedding plans, you should go ahead, just as your Mum would have wanted, and I'm sure she will be watching and sharing your happy day.I hope you have a better day today Nicky, surely things can only get better for everyone, we can't keep feeling like this forever and just have to get through each day and just take it as it comes.There will be happier times for all of us, we deserve it.Take care, love jayne xxx
I’ve been awake since 3am again and I ATE my banana last night so it still does nothing for me!!!!!! Thanks again for making me laugh-just what I needed and Jayne, I’m deeply offended (NOT!!!!!) I’m off out later with friends. I’m not having to stay overnight so I’m OK about going ,in fact I’m quite looking forward to it. (makes a change, I know!!)
Amanda- Good job you weren’t here last night: these girls were trying to lead me astray!!! It must be so nice for you being able to keep your mum’s clothes. My mum was a lot bigger (taller) than me and although she had some lovely “going out” clothes our tastes differed completely. Not that I’m particularly into fashion-more comfort. Hope you have another enjoyable day with the kids-don’t spend too much money now!!
Off for my walk again everyone-thanks for being there and for your friendship. I appreciate it so much.
Hope you're ok today.I just had to say something about your post yesterday.I too talk to my Mum out loud and I know it’s a one sided conversation as well, but it really does help doesn’t it.I also think things when I'm out and can hear her telling me things!!!For instance, when I was in morrisons one day, I saw some miniature cyclamens which Mum used to love.I was thinking ‘which colour would you like Mum’ and picked a red one up, and I heard her say to me ‘no I prefer the purple coloured one’, so I swapped it.How mad am I??I'm not sure if hearing voices is a bad sign, but I really do hear what she's saying to me, so maybe my lift doesn’t go all the way to the top either.
Anyway, what are you up to today?I have to pop out for about an hour later.It looks very dull and cold out today.Hope you got a good nights sleep.I fell asleep trying to think of what Walt Disneys nephew (or son was called !!).I lay there for ages, then suddenly came out with the question and my husband said ‘what on earth are you thinking that for ???’You know how it is, one thought leads to another then before you know it, you’ve totally lost the plot.Anyway I still can't think of his name.Hope to see you later.Love jayne xxx
So you had ANOTHER sleepless night, that’s horrible.I just don’t know what to suggest.I think you need to get into a pattern, once you do, you may stop waking up so early.What time are you off out with friends?I hope you have a really nice time.Is it an afternoon and evening thing?I wish I was coming with you to look at bathrooms and kitchens, I love mooching about like that, opening all the drawers and looking in cupboards and stuff.
I'm glad you had a laugh last night, its good to laugh, releases endorphins in the brain and causes a feeling of well being.I was still laughing when I went to bed, then got thinking all sorts of things and ended up thinking about Walt Disney of all people !!Still, could have been worse, could have been a mouse that talks I suppose.hope you’ve had a good walk, see you later, love jayne xxx
