hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
No i didnt have a sleep, but am now on paracetamol and am going to have a lie down on the bed to rest my knee, if i dont, it will be really bad in the morning (i know from experience). Its really swollen now, so need to put it up so it goes down. I will be back later (if i dont fall to sleep) and have a look on the In Memory site for your post. I would have liked to have said loads, as I'm sure we all would, but if we did that, we would go on for ages wouldnt we. At the end of the day, there really are no words that would really ever sum up how we feel and all that our mums did for us, but i think the tribute forum was an excellent idea of Mellybubs. Hope to speak to you later Karen, are you feeling better than you did yesterday? Every day is another step forward for all of us, we'll be ok Karen, at least we all have each other here, i'm so lucky to have found you all on this site, thank you for starting it. See you later, love jayne xxx
i posted on the memory site, and as you said yes id loved to have put so much down about mum but there are no words fitting for our mums are there?
i hope you manage to have a good sleep tonight too and keep your knee rested.
i feel a bit brighter this afternoon thanks for asking jayne, hope it carries on, i am going to try and have an early night, it probably wont work out that way though!!
as you said we will all get through this wont we, we have good families and we all have each other here, thank god!!
speak tomorrow jayne, look after your knee and back, love karen xxx
You have had a busy day, sorry to hear about your knee, I hope it does get a little easier over the next few days, It must feel like one thing after another, first your back and then your knee. You do need to look after yourself!!
I must say I think you are doing a fantastic job here supporting everyone and being around to share your experiences and your knowledge, this is just invaluable and it cascades all around us- please don't underestimate how much support you are offering by being here. It probably is one of the most important things you could be doing at the moment and your parents would be so proud!!
Hope you can get out in the garden tomorrow and do keep in touch about the job, I think it will happen soon and I think you're ready to take it on!!
I will be thinking about you and your dad tomorrow Jayne, I'm sure he and your mum will celebrate in style!
So good to see you and thanks for your post last night. I'm\pleased you're feeling and sounding a little brighter- good for you! We just never can predict how it can be from one day to the next or even sometimes one minute!!
I hope the rest of the week goes well and that all your fortunes change soon and things settle down, I'm sure they will Karen. Something will tiurn up fro your husband and everything will be less of a worry.
Have you any Easter plans? Jonathan is off ski-ing (without us!!) so we're having to plan a holiday away without him, this sounds be exciting but somehow it just does not feel right!! Still I suppose we have to get used to doing things without him, it's his birthday on Thursday and he'll be 12!! I so wish my mum and dad could be here to see him growing into a young man. I only hope that wherever they are, they are able to look and see him and how much they have influenced his life and his development.
Bella is doing very well with one her one little kitten who is so fat he can hardly walk, he just wobbles along!! But they're both happy (and my husband is delighted) so I suppose all's well in the feline world!!
Better go now, still some work to finish so see you soon and I hope you have a peaceful and restful night xx
So how is the holiday going? How are you feeling and how was the shopping trip? Plenty of memories all round but are you feeling any more rested and how are the palpatations?
It would be good to hear from you when you can get here,
So how are you getting on and how are things going. I suppose at the moment you are perhaps still thinking about the house sale and everything associated with that.
Anyway I just wanted to say that we do miss you and we are thinking about you and I am sending you my love and a big hug whever you are (())
You poor soul! How’s your knee now? How did you do it? I hope the paracetamol helps a little.
You and Marie have had a busy day again I see! Quite right the pair of you I think You do such a brilliant job supporting everyone. Did you manage to get all the chores done?
I’ve read your tributes to your dear mums. I knew I’d see that poem again. It was just lovely Jayne. Do you think I could put my little poetry effort on there?
Did you get the flowers for your dad? I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow. Did you say it would be mid April before the stone and plaque came back?
I’m just a way to trail Benji out for a walk again soon. The fresh air really seems to clear my head a bit. The poor thing is really too old for this now though- I’ll have to borrow Rocky!!
Three more days to go. Let’s hope I survive! We have a sponsored run around the school tomorrow so I hope it stays dry. I managed to get a few photos up. Very boring but if you’d like to see them go to the web site and click on the teddy. Go to the Easter Teddy Bears Picnic category. I think I’ve only put on about five. By the way I’m the blurred old one with the black eyes who looks (and feels) as if she hasn’t slept in weeks. If you are really at a loose end and want to see more, you can go to the main Forehill Blog. The older children have been looking after it. In the health category you can see what we did last week. If you go to the aerobics (think it’s now on the second page) you can hear one of my little ones speaking for all of ten seconds to the older kids. He is quite funny though.
Your tribute to your mum was just lovely, Marie. Weren’t they all such special people?
Are you feeling brighter today? The weather does make a difference, doesn’t it? It’s been lovely here once the fog lifted. As I said to Jayne we have a sponsored run tomorrow, which already has been cancelled so hopefully it will go ahead in the morning.
Once I’ve finished here I’m off out for a walk and hopefully I’ll get some sleep tonight.
Look after yourself. By the way you’re more than welcome to all meet here. It’s only about an hour by plane from London. You’d manage that, Marie!
You sound a touch brighter again today. Are you? As I was saying to the others the weather helps, doesn’t it?
Your tribute to your dear mum was also beautiful, Karen-had me in tears again. Your dad and Jayne’s must have been real handsome. My dad was just my plain ordinary dad but I loved him just the same.
Have you got an appointment with your GP yet? I hope you manage to see him/her soon. I won’t ask about the job front. I really hope that something turns up soon though.
Did you say your boys are on holiday on Friday too? I can’t wait. It’s been such a long term. I’m hoping that I’ll maybe get myself back on track again after I’ve had a bit of a rest. If not, I’m not sure what I’ll do next!
Anyway, good to hear from you again, Karen. Keep trying to stay positive and we’ll get through this together.
How are you today? I expect you’ve had another busy day. Do you have to travel far to work? I bet your looking forward to Friday too. Did you say you only get the week? Have you decided if you’re going to get away for a break- I hope so. I was thinking about what I was saying last night about not wanting to go away. I don’t think it’s because I feel “unfaithful”. It’s just that inside my tiny head I’m still scared that something else is going to happen (haven’t a clue what!!). I think the way my dad died has something to do with it and I just feel more secure at home-so silly I know. The mind (my mind) is a funny thing, isn’t it??
Is Jonathan all packed up yet? Does he have his own skis? There has been very little snow here this year so the ski centres round about are struggling this year I think. Even with the snow they’re nothing like going abroad though.
How are the pussy cats? I take it Fynn is staying. Benji is padding about here. He hates when I sit at this computer and if he’s not asleep he just annoys me continuously till I give up. He really has kept me going just now though. I’m off for a walk just now. I always stick to the well lit roads at this time. Hopefully it will help me sleep.
Have a good day tomorrow, Susan.
You’re my star just now- thank you.
Lots of love
Louise
xxxx
PS I’ve told Jayne about the school photos-nothing at all exciting though.
