hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
Good to hear from you. How are you this weekend? Glad you enjoyed the music festival. Was it something you were taking part in?
I didn’t make it to the cemetery today but will get myself there tomorrow. There is snow forecast but I hope it stays away from here. Yes, it would be good to get together and chat about our mums later tomorrow. They were so special, weren’t they, Susan. I wish so much they were all still here.
Afraid my computer connection has been a bit hay wire over last few days, but seems okay again so thought Id get a post in quickly.
I hope tomorrow is not to painful for everyone, we just have to try the best we can to get through the day and remember how special our lovely mums were, how much love they gave us and what wonderful people they were and how they brought us up to be the wonderful people we all are, as we can see from the support we all get and give, they have done a good job. They are all so proud of us for the way we are trying to now live our lives, yes not the way we would have chosen, but we are all trying in the best way we can, with our lovely mums watching over us, and guiding us from afar.
My dads house sale has now gone through, and he has to move out by Wed, so I may not have as much time to writeover next few days, but I will be thinking of you all and just want to thank you for all the support, encouragement and the friendship you have offered me, I dont think I could have gotten over the last year without you all and I am so glad I found you all here.
Sending you all hugs and love tomorrow, take care and speak to you in a few days.
xxxx Lots of love Amanda
I know that you are probably at your dad's this weekend but i did just want to say that I am and will be thinking of you this weekend, I suppose not great timing for everything to be completed for your day - but maybe that's what your mum would have wanted.
The really good thing is you can go to the cemetery and enjoy being there with your mum and I bet the headstone will look better than ever now. I hope you can take some comfort in that, I really wish I could do the same but there is no opportunity for me and nowhere really for me to go. I know that everyone will say my mum is always around but you know how it is, there is just a real need and an almost physical ache to be able to talk, laugh, hug and just enjoy being with your mum and there is nothing anywhere that can come close to filling that void.
I have asked that here at home, as little fuss as possible is made, I would just rather not bother with any of it but for our children, we have no choice so roll on Monday!!
How did the extra class go - what about the spinning!! I have done that class once at our local gym and I could hardly walk the next day so you can imagine that I never signed up again!!
I hope you and your family get through tomorrow as best you can - will you see your brother and what about your mother-in-law??
Hope to see you soon and look after yourself Amanda xx
I'm fine - what about you? Why did you not get to the cemetery today?? Are you ok?
Jonathan was playing in the festival (I'm hopeless!!) , he plays the violin and is very enthusiastic so I go along to support and help in any way I can. It was very enjoyable and it made the day pass very quickly so just tomorrow now! to get through
I hope you keep snug and that you can manage to relax enough tonight to have a good sleep and rest, you must be so tired are you??
Be careful now walking at this time of night!! I hope Benji looks after you well!
See we are all on here at same time today, Hope you are both okay, sorry I wont be around to talk about mums tomorrow would have liked that but off to dads tomorrow to start packing some things ready for Weds. Not looking forward to it, am going to stay over as it will be last chance to stay the night there and I can just sit in back room and remember. I know it is the best thing for dad and mum would want him to do this.
I think we were cross posting!! How are you feeling?? I'm so sorry to hear about your friend, it sounds as if she has had a terrible time, you do have to wonder sometimes what it's all about!! I hope things work out ok for her in the longer term sounds to me as if you doing a great job supporting her and just being there.
You're so right about tomorrow, our mums and how best we have to get through the day, I'm sure Aaron has been busy getting things ready for you and it will be difficult to appear happy and enthusiastic about the day.
Good news about your dad's saleand I hope that the next few days go well for him and you, I'm sure there will be many mixed emotions so look after yourself. It'll be so much better now you know your mum is by your side watching and supporting both you and your dad- you have that confirmation from a few weeks ago so remember and enjoy again that experience which I think you should all cherish.
I'll be thinking of you and sending you my love, come back soon, we'll miss you! I too need to thank you, it has been so great to have shared these times with you and I know that we all have something unique and special and that the love we all have for our mums and that unites us, wherever we are and I can ake some comfort in knowing that you are there knowing how it feels and how very difficult it can be to accept xx
Hi Susan,
Sorry saw your message after I posted last one. I know that void will never be filled will it, I keep stupidly thinking 'Oh I need to phone my mum and tell her..' about this or that,it just flashes into my head before I think clearly again. Especially with what happened to my friend, my mum was very close to her too and would have been so upset for her.
I will se my brother tomo saw him yesterday too they all came over to mine for awhile, witht the intention of picking up Rassay, but then dad had to work today (doing some scouting) and he had a thing to go to tonight so that is why we are not there today!! My mother in law did offer to come down to look after children,but I think I would have found that to hard!! Did order her some flowers online, though like you couldnt put words Happy .............. on message. Thought she deserved some lovely flowers, she has tried very hard to help us and support me.
I know it be hard tomo so as you said - roll on Monday!
Take care Susan
xxxx Amanda
Hi Lousie,
Dont worry if you cant find the words - some days it is just like that. I will be thinking of you tomo and when I visit cemetry and will say a little prayer for all of our mum s.
Take care Louise
xxxx Amanda
Hope you are bearing up today. I am thinking you all and will try and have a longer "chat" later with you and Susan.
Karen-Haven't heard from you for a while, are things any better?
Take care and thanks for everything
Lots of love
Louise
xxx
