hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
Not sure if you'll pop back at lunchtime so thought I'd just quickly post to let you know that I am thinking of you, it must be so difficult trying to encourage all the children with their Mother's Day cards. I cannot imagine how hard it must be, but what a great job you're doing and the mums will be so thrilled on Sunday - all thanks to you! It must all make you feel so much worse than you do but hopefully we just need to get over the weekend and then things may start to improve.
Look after yourself today, you must be very tired so you need to just take it easy. I'll be back later, but for now (())
Good to hear you enjoyed your meal and how thoughtful of your husband and it sounds as if your mum and dad were certainly there with you in spirit! What a coincidence that the man should turn up last night of all nights after all this time! I bet it was in a funny way it was good to be able to talk about everything.
I can understand how upsetting it was to go back through all your momentos, remembering happier days with your mum. It's a funny thing is'nt it that eve though we know how upsetting that will be for us, we still need to do it. I think this is again all part of the grieving and healing process and something that we do need to do. I'm not sure that does get any better but nonetheless we must need to do it.
Sadly one of our little kittens died last night, this was always the smaller one and despite us bottle feeding every couple of hours, she just passed away during the night. So we have one huge ginger bouncy one who has been active since he/she was born. I have a feeling it will turn out to be a boy given the male characteristics that are being displayed!!
So yes Friday and it has been quite a week, I did manage to buy my sister a card from her little boy but must admit to not looking at any too closely so I hope it's ok. I was quite sickened to hear some other customers talking about just getting the cheapest possible because they could not be bothered - it really just is'nt fair is it!
I'm hoping to be able to really cach up with everyone this weekend apart from a music festival Sat and Sun and football Sunday, we're hoping for a quiet weekend.
Hope your back is ok today and you can also manage to catch up on some rest. It's lovely and sunny now so enjoy the rest of the day - ? off to Morrison's??
How are you getting on? Any news? I do hope that things are looking up for you but suspect that may not be the case. It would be great to hear from you and we are thinking about you.
And thanks.I said the same thing to my husband, about dads friend turning up last night.I'm thinking Dad sent him so we could have a good natter about them. I agree that its all part of the healing process, we do need to talk about them to come to terms with it all I suppose.Things will get easier I know they will.
I'm sorry about your kitten, that’s sad.The huge ginger one is more than likely a boy.I was told that ginger cats are always boys, the same as tortoise shells are always girls, I could be wrong, but not sure.Will you keep him?Bet you do.
Well done for getting the card for your sister, must have been hard.My husband sat and wrote his to his Mum yesterday morning.I think he was expecting me to ask to have a look at it like I usually do, but I just couldn’t, so he didn’t push it, hes so thoughtful, a real gem.I can well imagine how angry that made you hearing about people buying the ‘cheapest’ card, how rotten is that?I'm sure I would have said something like ‘think yourself lucky you have a Mum, I lost mine to leukaemia and would give anything to buy her one’.I'd have made them feel guilty.Some people don’t realise how lucky they are do they?
Yes off to Morrisons today, see who I can meet at the bottle bank !!!I might take my neighbours because they haven’t been well, so will pop round in a bit to see if they want to come with me.You call that a quiet weekend Susan???That sounds busy to me, but then I'm a bit of a sloth.Hope you’ve had a good day, speak later, love jayne xxx
Sorry about my message earlier. Thank goodness I deleted the other one. I don’t understand what happens to me at times. Over the last couple of days I could feel myself “losing it” again and I don’t know why. My thoughts are just so irrational sometimes and they really scare me. I have sat in front of this computer for most of the last couple of nights not knowing what to do with myself. I’m such a fool and really need to get a grip of myself. I’m so sorry.
Jayne-glad you had a good night and what a thoughtful hubby you have. Hope Morrisons goes well!!
Susan-I’m really sorry to hear about the kitten-what a shame. Will you keep the other one?
Off back to work now. I’m a total wreck but have only 2 hours to survive till the weekend.
Will be in touch.
Thank you so much again.
Louise
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I am so sorry if I upset anyone yesturday by putting down what i was doing on sunday. I really didn't want to upset or offend anyone on here as you are all special people and you are all going through so much without me telling you what I'm doing with mum. I do like to talk about her as she's the only person in my family who I really love and care about so so much, and I know thats when she has gone I won't have anybody and that scares the hell out of me. The last thing I wanted to do was to make people feel worse than they do already. I was sat at home last night worrying about what i had said. I just keep questioning myself all the time should I have said that or shouldn't I, I guess its because I don't have any confidence in myself and wonder why other people would care. I think I'm just in a really bad place at the moment and I wish I could shake myself out of it but I can't seem to do. I read what you said Jayne about some people buying the cheapest card fro their mums as they can't be bothered. Some people take their mums for granted don't they and the wonderful ones who are really cared for and loved have to go or be ill its really unfair isn't it. I'm pleased you had a nice meal last night Jayne it must have been nice chatting about your mum and dad with your dads friend although it must have been really difficult when he asked about your mum, I'm glad you got through it ok. I hope your back is ok today. I think I will give you people some space and not bother you anymore I just feel so low in myself and I don't want to depress you all. You take care love Sharon xxx
Hello everybody and thank you for your kind messages.
I am sorry to here some of you are having a bad time at the moment, I know I am. I seem to be really down today and have to keep running into the toilets in work because I can't stop myself from crying.
I am really missing my Mum loads and I think the shock factor is going and the reality is kicking in. Saturday seems like the worst day for me because me and my Mum used to go out shopping all day, we used to love it and also my mum died on a Saturday, it will be 5 weeks tomorrow.
I think all of this Mothers Day stuff is really getting to me too. I am going to visit my mum on Sunday and lay some red roses for her. It's going to be really hard but I think it will help me. I keep thinking about my Mum all of the time and just can't believe she has gone, it just doesn't seem right.
I seem like I have got no get up and go at the moment, I just can't be bothered with anything and I know I am letting myself down but I have no strength inside me at the moment, its horrible.
I read a message earlier about a lamp being switched on, well I had a similar experience. I turned the light on in my dads this week and the bulb flickered then went, then in my house I switched the light on and not only did the bulb flicker but it exploded into pieces on the floor, I was round my sisters in the week too and her light bulb flickered and went. Then when I told one of my aunts she said 4 spotlights had gone in her house this week (all the bulbs went in the kitchen). I think thats my Mum trying to let us know she is around still.
I hope you all have a strong weekend, and I hope you all get through Mothers Day, I know it will be hard for us all.
Don’t apologise for your message, that’s what we’re here for.You're not alone in what happens to you.I don’t understand either, it just hits you doesn’t it, and theres no explanation as to why one minute we’re ok then the next we just go to pieces, except that we miss our loved ones.And its as good a reason as any to feel and behave the way we do. And you're not a fool, stop punishing yourself. You are a good person.I only wish there were more people in this world like you, it would certainly be a better place.Hope you got through the rest of the afternoon ok, speak later, love jayne xxx
Hi Louise--Sorry you having a tough time,but its hardly surprising- you're being bombarded with the mothers day thing, with all of those children making cards for their mums.hopefully you will feel better tonight after school has finished.I had an elderly friend ask me last wekk how my mum was.She had clearly forgotten that mum had passed away.I just replied that she was still dead, but i said it lightly with a smile on my face.it actually didn't bother me at all, it upset my friend far much more than it did me.i didn't hold it against her, the fact that she had forgotten-because she meant me no harm in asking.it's lovely here today,but snow forecast for Sunday evening and then monday!!! how weird is that? i shall have to make the most of the spring sunshine whilst its here.Shall be thinking of all of you on here this weekend.Just because our mums are no longer here it doesn't mean that we can't spend a few special moments thinking about them on Sunday, and sending our love to them now that they are somewhere else.Take care Louise- hope you sleep better tonight.Bye for now,Marie XXXX
What is it with everyone apologising today.You have every right to say what you're doing on Sunday with your Mum.You certainly didn’t upset me, I hope you have a lovely day, enjoy it.What are you cooking?What are you buying your Mum?I bought mine a bunch of 12 yellow roses with gypsyfilla (can't spell it, hang on I’ll look in mums gardening book)…….GYPSOPHYLLA.Of course you like to talk about your Mum, she's your Mum!!!Please don’t sit at home worrying about things you’ve said, we all understand and we DO care about you and your Mum.I hope you have a lovely day on Sunday.Take care Sharon, love jayne xxx
