Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hi folks just got the 2 nights 2 do this week thanks for askin dermatology good for now just bloods to get 16th beatson and al rest easy how are u all doing been off last 2 nights had a we night out sat but felt a bit dodgey sun .so was on a sicky just cant handle even the lager shandy ha ha ha
Hi Paul...how ya doing mate and hows 'the night shift going?' Shezie's about too on her thread hiding behind a smile...how was your weekend and have ya moved in yet?? x
hi teresa how are you and shezie doing ye last night on its been qqqq wont finish that word till am going out the door at 7 dont want to tempt fate ha ha what u been up to . spent my first night in flat sat went for small refreshment with elisa and my m8 scott to race night so stayed at flat just got my hall to sand and paper paint will move in next week .but think my sis would like me to stay a bit longer .nice of you to ask
Come over onto Shezie's site as (only just started on there) not heard from her for a while till tonight...sounds like the flats coming on and almost finished but also sounds like your sis wants you to stay a while longer :-)
yes bring the lot you fance a trip to glasgow cold wet that the weather but I have the same taste in drink ha ha yes I do plan to have a house warming but dont tell the power companys they will charge me extra ha ha ha got bunk beds if you 2 dont mind sharing he he he ye its looking great done the sixty minute make over on sat during the day from 1 till 5 bunkbeds wardrobes drawers and all the other stuff out underlay gripper carpet in then start again putting it all back in it was mad .xxxxxx
