Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hi shezie,just nipping off for a while to try and catch a few zzzzzzs,might be back on later if not catch up with you t/morrow nite take care nite nitexxxxxxxps enjoy your glass of winexx xxxx
hi shezie u still about on the o.t again but cant knock it back . got hossy tmorra dermatology at 10.30 so a hope they dont want any pieces of me ha ha the last time they asked if a wanted to see it a just wanted to get the f out of dodge hour half local anast thought the dentist was scary .dont even blink in dentists now a swear she thinks am not human because a nearly fell asleep the last time I went .he he
Hi all Shell2 hope you ok,what time do you go to hosp tomorrow? b thinking about you hun xx
Jacke and Paul sorry p/c crashed on me last night, glad your hubby doing ok,keep spoiling him and i love party,s xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Hope you got on ok today paul xx
I,m good today thanx, dad came over and did a bit in my garden,just like old times before all this poo! Didn,t have a fag all afternoon as parents don,t no i smoke,lol.I,m not complaining tho.How,d you get on at school Mon? xx
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