Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
thankyou to everyone that has wished me luck seen the dr at walton told me that if they can give me a op i have 20mths if not 8mths i think im still in shock its like he was talking to someone else i havent cryed just numb x
dear shell hunni i am so so very sorry for your news, i just dont know what to say, but please know we are all standing right beside you and hugging you so very tight sweetheart.
massive hugs and tons of love to you, karen xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Shell2, so so sorry you had that news, honey.....but as Shezie says, it has to be just a guess as to time lines, keep fighting, babe! my love and hugs.....
is anyone still on i just cant seem to get my head around what has been said im so scared does anyone on this site know anything about brain cancer my mind is in a right mess my little girl is only 3 and i keep looking at her and thinking about her growing up without me and the thought of dying
Hi shell,you,ll get through this one day at a time hun.I think theres a thread on here about brain tumours,people on there may have more info,but remember you,re you,and everyones different Much love and hugs xx
