Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey chickie kate Naughty chickie!! lol Don't fell out the window you know smokings bad for yor health and we don't wanna be sending them hunky firemen around again to rescue you! lol See ya in a bit while i sit here puffing away in the comfort of me own sofa!!! Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Yeah zone out a bit when talkin bout footie.Guess im a canaries supporter, i do understand offside rule though........................Kate my parents dont no i smoke, at my age............... Teresa my phone got crap reception,get txt,s hours after they been sent.....xx
Dear MHM...you should kick british gas's arse...how great would that have been for Daz to talk to them, me and likkle one had a thought earlier and if (like the Arsenal game we went to) we're given the chance to go to Chelsea v Man U then we'll ask you and Daz to come along too...just as long as you don't get upset with the final score lol! xxxxxxx
quick chickie teresa get on the phone we need the hunky firemen to come rescue chickie kate! lol Can i have one here too cos i feel left out otherwise? lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie teresa Course we'd love to come never been to a footie match before well not a proper one anyway! lol Daz used t go to see Chelsea a few times but with cost of tickets and family commitments etc bit hard you know how it is? lol One of his mates is trying to get us tickets to see a Chelsea game too but not heard anything yet mind you know what some people are like eh? Thank you so much both of ya that was really sweet Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie kate Though you was into weird men? lol You're getting very fussy in your old age! hahahha Beggers can't be choosers eh? lol Loves ya still peter sutcliffs lover!! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
